Damaged

Introductions.

I opened my eyes as the sun light coming from the window hit them, it was beautiful outside but i could really do with some more sleep, that would be impossible with the heat in this room and the amount of light that was now coming in through the curtains. I sat up and noticed Zayn wasn't here anymore, i decided to let myself wake up before i headed to see where he was but before i could he came back into the room, his face was so.. dull. Not in a bad way, i just couldn't see anything in him. He sat back onto the bed and watched me as i looked out the window, i could feel his eyes piercing the side of my head. "Oi." He was very rude, he knew my name and in my opinion that is not the way to get someones attention but i answered anyway. "Hm?" I turned my head to look at him, only then realising how close we were. "Thankyou for looking after me last night." He locked his eyes on my lips and then back to my eyes, he licked his lips and leaned closer to me. Oh god, he was going to kiss me, before i could respond he grabbed my waist and continued moving closer to me, he puckered his lips and closed his eyes but just as our lips were about to touch there was a knock at the door. He leaned back and observed my shocked facial expression, he smirked and got up to answer the door. 

I sat on his bed, not wanting to move incase it was private, i heard muttering but i couldn't tell who it was or what they were here for. Maybe his brother is back? I wished it was his brother because when he walked in and introduced us, i felt a little dissapointed. "Elle, this is my girlfriend, Mercy." I stared at her, i couldn't say a word, she had to be about 6ft, i was just over 5ft, she had her black hair in a short bob, her green eyes stood out with the colour of her skin, her smile instantly made me feel comfortable, why? She was absolutely beautiful, no wonder Zayn wasn't interested in me.. But then again, he did try and kiss me. I felt hurt that he would do that, to both of us. I soon realised i had been staring at her for longer than i should have. "Oh, wow, sorry. You have a girlfriend?" I turned to Zayn, he smiled, a very uncomfortable smile. "Its nice to meet you.. Mercy." She smiled at me again, her smile really was infectious, i felt like i had the stupidest grin on my face but i couldn't wipe it off. "You too, you're hair is gorgeous, i've always envied blondes." She took a bit of my hair and it looked as if she was examining it. "Yeah, well.. Blondes have more fun." I giggled but i was nervous i'd offend her. She smiled at me and then it was took off her face "I don't mean to be rude but Zayn.. Who is she?" I suddenly felt like i wanted the ground to swallow me up, i was so uncomfortable in this situation. "A friend, from school." She shrugged her shoulders and sat herself on the bed, she started talking to me in a way i'd never understand, about girls stuff but i never really had someone to talk about this with. 

We had left Zayns brothers house to go get something to eat, we were in a lovely little cafe when Mercys eyes lit up. "Oh my god, i have someone who'd be perfect for you." I just looked at her, completely shocked. After a while of explaining my situation, telling her how i had no clue how to communicate with people and how i'd never had a friend she just replied "You're talking to me fine." I realised that we actually had been talking quite a lot and i didn't feel nervous about talking to her. "You know Mercy, i think i've talked to you more than i've ever talked to Zayn." I got a look off Zayn that made me think he was quite confused, we never really had long conversations but even if we had, Mercy had a lot to say and i wanted to respond every time, i felt bad about this considering Zayn had tried to kiss me just before she turned up and the fact i was dissapointed that Zayn had a girlfriend, but i couldn't help but like her. 

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I went back home with Mercy and got ready to go out with Zayn, Mercy and this mystery guy, i was nervous as hell but Mercy talked me around and made me see it would be fun. I could tell she wasn't from a family with much money, the minute she saw my house her eyes lit up, she made an 'o' shape with her mouth as she saw my walk in closet. We stood looking through my dresses trying to find something i could wear "You have beautiful clothes, i'm so jealous. You're going to show me up tonight." Her eyes went to the floor, she genuinley looked upset. "I could never ever show you up. Borrow something." Even though she was taller than me we were around the same size, my dresses would just be shorter on her than they were on me. "Oh, i couldn't." She gave me a thankful smile then walked into my room and sat herself on my bed, taking in her surroundings. I picked an orange dress, it was a light orange, it had been my favourite but i know she'd look stunning in it, it came down to my ankles and it was strapless. "You're right, you can't borrow anything. But you can sure as hell have this, come on Mercy this would look amazing on you!" She looked up at me in shock, she scanned the dress and i could tell by her face she loved it. I picked out some shoes for her then i continued to look for a dress for me. I picked a baby blue dress, it was basically the same as the dress i had given Mercy except there was a slit through the bottom. I put it on and walked to where Mercy was. "Wow." She looked me up and down and her eyes were wide. "Me wow? You wow!!" She looked absolutely stunning, her bob was perfectly straight with it flicking inwards at the bottom and she had orange eyeshadow on with a subtle pink lipstick. I hadn't done my hair yet or my make up but Mercy was going to help me with that, she pinned my hair up and curled it, she let the curls hang out of the bun which really enhanced my features. She put a little mascara on me, with some blue eyeshadow and a little eyebrow pencil on my eyebrows to make them stand out, the finishing touch was some blush. I have to admit looking in the mirror i actually felt beautiful, i was still so nervous though. 

I stood observing Mercy as we stood at the bottom of the stairs waiting for my mum, she was going to take us because we were going to have a few drinks so she'd have to pick me up. She really was stunning which made me incredibly jealous, i wondered why i liked her so much when i knew i had these feelings for Zayn, it was nothing strong i just knew he made me feel safe but still uncomfortable. My mum came into view just as i snapped out of my thoughts, the minute she saw us her eyes welled up, always so embarrassing. "You's two look absolutely beautiful." I saw Mercy blush, she had met my mum earlier for about 5 minutes. "Thanks mum." I smiled at her then turned to see Mercy grinning like a chesire cat "Thankyou so much and thanks Elle, i never believed i could look this good." She blushed again, i didn't understand, why didn't she see how utterly stunning she was? "You could look good in a bin bag." She laughed but i made sure she knew i wasn't joking, she really could. 

We pulled up to the restaraunt, Zayn and another boy were standing outside, talking. Zayn had a cigarrette in his hand while the other boy stood with a pint. He was a little taller than me, he had blonde hair with brown roots but it looked good, he had a lovely little smile and he looked more nervous than me. As we got out the car i saw both of their heads turn, they looked shocked and a little.. embarrassed? That couldn't be it, but i was good at telling how people were feeling. They smiled at us as we walked over, Mercy linked her arm into mine as we neared them. "Wow." They said in unison. I saw Mercy blush again but this time i joined her. We smiled at them and tried to hide our emotions as we walked into the restaraunt. 

I sat talking to Niall, i found out that was his name, for a very long time, we had a lot in common, well, quite a bit anyway. He made me laugh and smile, he was so cute. He told me how he's not the best with girls, whenever he likes a girl someone always gets there first, how he gets put down repeatedly by his brothers. I felt for him. "But anyway i just can't believe i'm here with you. I must be lucky." He took a hold of my hand and looked right into my eyes while he said it, he was adorable. "I'm the lucky one." I don't know why but i instantly had the urge to lean in, i just wanted to kiss him despite the fact Zayn and Mercy were sitting opposite us, but they couldn't keep their hands off eachother anyway. As our lips connected i didn't see fireworks but i did get butterflies, i then decided i would see him again. I grabbed the back of Nialls neck, really getting into the kiss when someone kicked me under the table. I pulled away and muttered 'ow' under my breath but Niall must have heard. He leant over and asked "Did i do something wrong? Was that a bad kiss?" I just smiled at how lovely he was. "No, it was perfect." His smile instantly widened and he grabbed my hand and kissed me on the forehead. Then we continued to eat. 

I think this was perfect, this way i could get rid of the feelings i had for Zayn, i wouldn't hurt Mercy and i got Niall out of it. 

I'm happy.