I lied on the roof, just staring at the twinkling dots above me. All I could imagine was how truly magnificent those tiny objects were. To my eyes, they seemed tiny, like even my hand was larger, although in reality they were more than 100 times larger than me. It's amazing to think that something can seem so small, but be so large. For something to simply look so close, but be so far away.
We go through life just finding out what is real and what is not, what is close and what is simply out of reach. He's leaving so soon and I cannot do anything but watch and hope we spend as much time as we can. I'm going to miss him, so much, but as I said, we go through life finding what is close and what is simply out of reach. I can only wish he was here to gaze and feel the same spark of amazement as I do. But I am doomed to realize this lovely night is soon to become loveless. The pit of loneliness he filled with love and care will soon become an empty void of sadness and angry tears.
Surly one of my largest pet peeves is the statement "I don't want to die alone", especially when said by singe people. Although even if you do have a partner or don't, you will still die alone. I know someone can counter this claim by saying " We aren't alone if someone loves us" Just because you are involved in some kind of relationship absolutely does not mean you will not die alone. Of course if you are loved, in which you are, you will not feel alone. But in reality, you are alone physically. I'm sorry to bring this into light but it is the truth. Many people would rather be told a comforting lie, over the brutal truth.
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Thank you so much for reading, I will try to update more often. I love you all.
