Love is a mysterious thing. Some could say it's the best you could have, others disagree. It can tear you apart. All you can focus on is them. We try and try again to stop, but to no avail. Paranoia and an aching heart can drive a person to beautiful insanity. Love is an overdose disguised in perfection and heartfelt conversations.
Seeing him everyday tore my heart to bits. His eyes are only for her while all I need is him. I don't know if there are others out there but I have never found what I was looking for. My emotional side blocks everyone out and I can never seem to control it. I can not help what I am. I can thoroughly believe I am nothing, and you can't stop it. I need to hide what I feel, and wipe away my tears before they dare to fall. People get tired of me so easily, so I'm used to seeing people leave. Sometimes I feel I can no longer take the pain in my heart and I can no longer convince myself that hole is filled. It simply isn't anymore. Those who I thought would stay, slowly backed further and further away. The only way I can describe myself anymore is "alone". Replaced, ignored, and being kicked when I'm down is so normal, it no longer really phases me. Sleeping away the sadness, is the only cure for the madness.
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I love you guys. Updating every Monday and Wednesday.
