Our Song

Broken Again

AKE'S POV

"Brazz, let's talk!"

"I know, I know...wag ka na magalit please." Brazz

"So, alam mo talaga?-

He can't even looked at me. I know there's something. 

Brazz...why? Tell me, please." 

"Ake...i- i'm sorry."  Tumingin sya saken. Bakit parang ibang yung pakiramdam ko sa gusto nyang sabihin. 

"Brazz, may problema ba tayo? Bakit ka nag-so-sorry? May dapat ba ko ikagalit? Tell me?!"

"I-im S-sorry." 

"Why are you stuttering? Kinakabahan ako sayo!" Gosh! Mas lalo pa ko kinabahan nung nakita ko umiiyak sya.

"Pangz ko, you don't have to cry. Apology accepted ok? Let's just forget about it! Para ka ng bata dyan." Though alam ko na may mali I tried to ignore it and pretended that I didn't notice anything but the hell! 

"Ake let's end this."

Parang gumuho ang mundo ko! Am I really that stupid? Again! Malas ba talaga ko sa relationship? What now? Is it my fault again? My tears began to flow.

"B-brazz? May kulang ba saken? May mali ba? May nagawa ba ko na di mo nagustuhan? May ayaw ka ba saken? Am I not that attractive? Tell me! I'll change if that's what you want. Just please don't leave me please. Is it because of what happen? I don't know anything about that!" 

I can't breath..it's really hard! Bakit lagi na lang ako yung naiiwan? 

"Ake, i'm getting married." I'm dumbfounded with that revelation. It took me long before I even had the courage to look at him. I can see pain and sadness in his eyes.

"Bakit lahat na lang kayo umaalis? Bakit nyo ba ko parati iniiwan? Hindi ba talaga ko pwedeng sumaya?" I can't stop crying. It really hurts! Damn this life! Am I not deserving for that so called HAPPINESS!!!!!????

"I love you Ake. I really do! This is really hard for me. Please stop crying. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." He hugged me. 

"Brazz.."that's the only word I can utter. Ang sakit eh. I kept on crying. 

"I don't know how to tell you about this. I'm scared. I don't want to hurt you. I don't want to be the reason for your heartaches. Well, I  guess I suck at that! Please stop crying."

"How can I do that tell me? If I can only stop this tears I will! But the hell I can't!"

"I'm sorry I broke my promise. I honestly love you Ake nothing will change. Duwag lang talaga ko. I can't  fight for you."

"Promises are made to be broken."

"If only I can turn back time I would! I will not allow myself to go near you not because pinagsisihan ko minahal kita, not because ayoko mahalin ka. I just don't want you to be broken again like this because of me. You've had so much heartaches from Lex and I don't want to be like him but I guess destiny has other plans for the both of us. I can't be your Prince. Not anymore. I'm sorry Ake. I'm sorry!"

"I don't know why it turned out this way. I don't want to know the reason. Brazz

if you leave now....

please...

don't

ever come back! 

And yes, whatever your reasons are I'm setting you free. Thanks for everything 

and

for the heartache. Leave me here. Leave now. Please."

"Ake i'm sorry. I love you. I will miss you. God! Ake, i'm so sorry! Go-" Brazz

"STOP!!!!! Don't you dare say that word! I hate the feeling being the one to received that word! Just leave and don't say anything. GO!!!!!!"

Umiiyak lang ako naramdaman ko na humiwalay na sya saken. Tumayo at lumakad palayo. After this night wala na kong Brazz. 

"I love you too Brazz"

Naramdaman ko tumigil sya. Tumingin ako sa kanya. Nakatalikod sya saken. Pinagmasdan ko sya habang lumakad na sya palayo saken.  

Goodbye Brazz. Till we meet again.

Though I don't have any idea kung saan ako magsisimula ulit para mabuo muli...I know kakayanin ko to. Mahirap pero kelangan.

Everything happens for a reason and that reason is what I will try to discover.