Our Song

Pretense

Hindi ko alam kung gaano na ko katagal umiiwas sa kanila. 2 weeks? a month? I lost track of time. School-bahay lang ang ginawa ko. I busied myself by reading a lot of books which I found much better than staying at my room thinking what if's. Same routine everyday.

Now that Brazz is out of the picture I think I need to start the process of coping up and standing up. I heard they've been very busy to their wedding. Well i'm happy for Atah, Brazz is a good guy. I know he'll take care of her.

Surprisingly my phone beeps...I feel excited coz it's the first time after that incident between me and Atah.

--->From: BFF Clo

Ake, I really miss you. Are you still not over with your ALONE TIME?!

---> From: BFF Eve

Enough of your ALONE TIME. Talk to her. We're so..stress with the both you.

P.S

I miss you FYI!

I unconsciously smile. Gahhh... I miss these crazy girls.

Tumayo na ko and change my clothes..time's up! I need to face the real world. After all, she's still my friend..my sister.

Atah's Bar

"Hi!"

"OMAHGY!!!!" Clo screams. Well, hindi halata na sobra nya ko na miss while Eve hugged me.

"Glad you came. Welcome back to earth!" Eve will always be Eve. She tapped my shoulders and gave me a smile.

And then I saw Atah...

dooms day it is! There's no turning back now. I slowly walk towards her. She's looking down while knotting her finger. Not the Atah I know.

"Atah.." I saw her shoulder drop as she looked at me and put a pretense smile on her face. Same as what I'm giving her.

"Ake...--"theres a long pause before I hear her speak again.

"I'm sorry..

I'm sorry for causing you so much pain. For breaking your heart again. I didn't mean it. If only I could do something, I would but I can't..,sadly I can't i'm so sorry." tears begun to flow as I hear those words. We're both crying now I just let her do the talking.

"I admit I like Brazz but never in my dreams I thought that this will happen. He loves you and I want you to be happy that's why I didn't tell you how I feel about him coz knowing you..you'll do whatever it takes to make us happy. I know that if you knew about my feelings you'll not accept Brazz baka nga gumawa ka pa ng way para magkaron kami ng chance. I hate myself for not being like you. I'm so sorry Ake!" Atah is crying..and I can't help myself not to cry. I looked at Eve and Clo. Eve immediately look at the other side but I saw she's crying too even Clo.

I hold Atah's hand and she looked at me.

"You know I love you and I honestly don't hate you. You're a special part of me but I hope you understand that it ain't easy being with you. Mahirap magkunwari na masaya ko para sayo kung ang totoo ay hindi. I understand whatever the reason is alam ko na hindi mo ginusto yun." Atah bow her head and speak..

"It's the merging of our company..you know I will do anything to please my parents. Naintindihan mo naman ako Ake diba?" Atah apologetically

"Someday. Someday Atah. If that day comes I will come to you and be your friend again...as of now I can't and i'm sorry for being like this. Believe it or not I understand you. It's just that sometimes understanding is not enough for us to settle our pain. Congratulation to your wedding."

"You'll not come?"Atah sadly ask me.

I just answer her with a smile.

"Of course you will not come. Stupid me hoping that you will. But you know you're always be part of it. No one can ever take your place. You'll always be my maid of honor. I'm sorry Ake. I miss you..." Atah's tears kept on falling. I wish I can take all this pain that i'm feeling so I can hug her and say that we're okay.

"In time Atah. Just give me time." after saying that I stand up and looked at Clo and Eve's direction.

"I'll be going now."

"Ake...thank you for hearing me out."- Atah

"I have to. I need to. Congratulation. He's a good man. He'll take care of you I know."

Eve mouthed thank you as I make my out.

After that talk I felt relieved and free. That really helps I guess.