Our Song

Partly, Yes. I miss him!

Nobody dares to ask me what's the real score.

Nobody knows what happen.

It's been a week now...

I know they're all eager to ask questions.

"Ake, i miss you. You're so boring kasama for a week now, you know!? Super tahimik ka lang and uber sa kasungitan. Hindi mo kami kinakausap or anything, andyan ka lang physically." - Clo says to me as she pouts her lips.

I just looked at her and continue doing my thing. What's the point of discussing it to them? It's finished!

"Clo stop ranting nonsense! You're being childish again. Let her do what she wants." - Eve

Eve perfectly knows my attitude. I'm glad that she understands even though she doesn't know anything.

"You know naman na we're just here for you diba? So if ever na plan mo na to make chika what happen. You know where to find us. " - Clo

I'm grateful having them as my friends. Through thick and thin, they are here.

"I'll go ahead. Thanks anyway." I walk out of that room being there reminds me everything about Brazz.

He's been with me as I struggle to get my life back when Lex torn it apart. He help me and now that he's gone, once again I feel lost. Why me? All this time I kept on asking why? Two different person but it ended the same...iniwan nila ko! Am I not deserving to be loved?

I'm walking at the hallway of our Uni when I realized that I forgot my mobile phone. It's not that i'm expecting a call it's just that..oh crap that reasoning there's no point in denying it...I'm expecting he'll call me back! That's it! I heave a long sigh realizing that I'm still not into moving on process as of now! Partly, yes. I miss him and a part of me doesn't want to remember and that is my mind.

As I approached the room I heard Atah talking. Something is urging me to listen and be quiet. I don't know why but I feel like there's something bad that's going to happen. And so I silently open the door it's good that they are facing the other way. They didn't notice me. Just as I'm about to take another step in, one thing that Atah says caught my attention and turns my whole world upside down...

"Me and Brazz, we're getting married." - Atah

I saw how Eve and Clo's lips form in a perfect O same time as I dropped my things and wasn't able to move. Shock written all over they're faces but as for me I don't know what kind of state I am in right now. I was just standing there looking directly to Atah.

"OhHhh.. sshhhhiittt..." Eve slowly utter.

"Ake let me explain." Atah

"No need."

"Ake please-" Atah says while she's crying.

"I say no! I don't mind you being with him and I don't mind you two getting married! Congratulations! I'm happy for you" my tears starting to flow. Eve get up and immediately hug me while Clo she's still shock.

"Ake.." Atah

"Atah, not now." Eve

She nods and left the room as Clo follow her. We're both lucky to have Eve and Clo at this moment of our life. We have someone we can talk to and someone who will comfort us.

I looked at Eve and she gave me a reassuring smile.

"Everything will be alright Ake. We're here for you. Hear her out. Maybe she has a valid reason. Valid enough for you to stay as her friend. We've been friends since we were kids and I know that you will understand her. Just open your heart Ake. I know that it's hard but our friendship, it's all that we have. We defend with each other. Don't let this thing ruin us."

"I will try Eve, I will try. It hurts when he say that he's breaking up with me coz he's getting married but I guess it hurts more when I hear her say that they are getting married." This feeling I can't explain..bakit ganun? Bakit si Atah pa? Of all people..why her!?

"Ake minsan hindi enough yung reason na binibigay sayo ng tadhana para mabuhay pero God give you a lot of choices para ipagpatuloy pa rin kahit na alam mong masasaktan ka. And that's because you still believe that no matter what happen and even things go wrong...you will always have the options to start anew." Eve

As I absorb what Eve say memories of me and Atah comes flashing in my mind.

I know deep inside me that I don't hate her. I'm just hurt.

"Eve, thanks for comforting me but I think I need some alone time." She smile at me and nod. I left that room.