8/20/13
2:15 PM
In the words of Hannah Hart, "HELLOH!"
So, to begin with, that trip I was supposed to take my baby cousin on? It was cancelled because of the huge rain storms. So instead I got to hang around his class for the day. All the little girls really liked me. I love children, especially when they're really little because they behave better for me. This one particular little girl in his class touched my heart. She was about four, half my height, and had this brilliant ginger hair. Her name was Anya. She was really shy at first, staying a few feet away from me and watching me. But as soon as I sat down she came over and perched herself on the table next to me. Soon all the little girls came crowding over to me, so Anya moved to sit on my lap. She didn't leave my side the rest of the day; like having a Siamese twin, kind of. It was just so sweet.
So, that was a good day for me. I've had a better handle these last days. I'm slowly regaining my composure. The cutting has levied off (I'm not saying I haven't had the urges, because I definitely have, but they haven't been as strong and I've kept in control of them). I'm slowly starting to feel better. These last two days I've have only wanted to cut once, and I took a really long shower and cooled down enough to stop myself. So I'm feeling really good right now.
I also made a new friend who is really into Doctor Who and shares a lot of my theories and likes/dislikes. I finally have another DW friend that agrees that HorseFace (Rose Tyler) did not belong in Doctor Who AT ALL, let alone become one of the new "BEST COMPANIONS", which she is most definitely NOT!!!!
So, overall, I'm good right now. Can't wait till this Friday because I'm spending the nigh there and then I'm going to a flea market with her the next day. Admittedly, I'm still a little uncomfortable to have my scars out in front of my aunt and uncle, especially when we're out in public together. They try to make me comfortable with it, but I ha like NO self-confidence, so its hard for me.
Anyway, I'm feeling a little better! Yay!
Forever Yours,
Bo Jones, Fallen Angel ;D
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3
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