Dereks POV
I don't even know what to do anymore. I'm such a terrible person. Y/n deserves someone else better than me. She's too precious for what I've been doing to her. It's an addiction that I can't stop. I drink a lot.. You can say I'm an alcoholic. Ok but whatever, when I drink I always end up walking out the house or if I'm at a party I'll go with some slutty prostitute and she'll start grinding on me. And I like it.. I can't stop. I'm at Nate's house right now. And I'm deciding not to drink or smoke at the moment. Later I'm gonna go to y/n's house to go and break up with her and explain. I love her too much for her to deal with me. But I'm gonna handle it of course on the gentle way. It breaks my heart for having to leave her but we haven't been talking for about a week now. She's been texting me but I've been ignoring. I've planning out on how this is going to work. "Alright um Ima go to y/n's house guys bye!" I say. They all say bye and I walk out the door and go into my car. I just drive in silence because now is not the time for music.
~20 minutes later~
I pull up to y/n's house. Hm. Looks like there's a family member or a friend visiting her. I get out from my car and shut my door. I leave my phone in the car, I don't really need it at this moment. I start walking up the steps and i knock on her door. I put my hands together in front of me looking around waiting for the door to open. "Can I help you?" I look infront of me and it's a dude. "Yes um is y/n in there?" I ask. The dudes a little taller than me and a little buff. "Babe who is i-" y/n opens the door with a robe on. My heart just shattered. I know I've done other things but I haven't done it infront of her. Nor have I ever called any girl "Babe" infront of her. But y/n just called another guy babe infront of me. And I'm pretty sure they just got done having sex because the guy is wearing his boxers and y/n is in a robe. "Babe?" I say. "Derek I'm so sorry I thou-" I cut y/n off. "No I'm done with you!, you guys can go back to having ya'lls wrestling match! But you know what after all this time we have had it y/n I was faking it. I didn't even like the head It was horrible! Sucks for you big guy, enjoy eachother!" I'm fucking pissed right now. I'm walking away. "FUCK YOU!" I go into my car and slam my door and just step on the pedal and I'm out. I'm speeding atm. Crying and sniffling. How can she do this to me? I mean I know I've done stuff close to this but I haven't had sex with anyone but her. What the fuck. I guess she's not who I thought she was. She's just a hoe and a lair nothing else. And I least I tried to do the right thing and go to break up with her and talk about it. Unlike she would. I wipe my tears off and turn up the radio. Fuck her! She ain't worth my tears. I text Nate.
"Yo, I'm comin I'll be there in 15."
"Ahh, bro how did it go?"
"Mm I'll talk to you about it when I get there ight."
"Alright dude see you in a bit."
I lock my phone and start singing along with the songs playing on the radio. I arrive at Nate's house and walk in. "Hey!!" I say walking in. "Aye what's good! Come sit down I made one for you." Nate says. I sit down and he's offering me a joint. "Ahhh why not?!" We start laughing and he hands me the lighter. I take a puff. "So what happened?" Nate asked. John is is just sitting there listening to us. "Ok, so I go to her house and I see a car, me thinking Ok hey a family member is here..shit this is gonna be awkward. So I knock on the door and a big dude answers it. I'm like what the hell who is this? Hah I've never seen him before? I then her y/n say Babe who is it? I'm like huh? Y/n is right there. Then she's here tryna explain things. No bitch! I say and I start telling them off and at this point I'm pissed. Because they just have had sex." John and Nate looking at me not even exhaling their joint, their mouths wide open. "I know haha she ain't what I thought she was." I say. "That's for sure." John says. "I go into my car and I came here." I finished off saying. "Wow D... She a hoe for real, she ain't worth your time bro." John says. "Yeah." I say back. "Oh well it's fine. You got this" Nate says grabbing my hand with my joint in it. "And you got us." Nate takes a puff. "Yeah ha these hoes ain't loyal!" John said. We start blasting some music and enjoy our time.
Wow... She a straight up hoe..
