I'm not hungry as I usually am. Everything that I thought was good, disgusts me. I would feel the need to puke every time I smell food. And I don't know if I'm pregnant or not. I don't wanna know. Oh for fuck sakes! Of course I'm fucking pregnant. There's obviously all these symptoms that happen when your pregnant and I've had them.
C'mon Jada, you need to accept the fact that you're pregnant and the fact that you will tell Derek about it. I hope he hasn't noticed. I live with him and every night I get up from our bed, run to the toilet and puke. Derek just thinks that I'm sick or that just I got food poisoning. I mean... he takes care of me when I'm sick. He takes off from work and makes me soup.
What if he abandons me if I told him that I was pregnant? I mean he doesn't seem the type, but people can come with several surprises. "Ma are you feeling better now?" Derek asks as I'm eating the soup he made while I'm deep in my thoughts. "A little baby, thanks for taking care of me you don't know how much I appreciate it." I tell him. He gives me a smirk when I look over at him. "Anything for you.. my love."
Derek says at the end pausing. Hm.. I never heard him say that before. That's new. So I think about when he said 'anything for you'. Would it be the right time to tell him he's the father of my child? Man I've been wanting to tell him that I'm pregnant for the past 3 weeks. Yes, I've kept it in for that long! I'm sorry. But wait.. I don't even know if I'm pregnant for sure. I'll just ask him to take me to a store and I'll secretly buy pregnancy tests.
It's a few hours past and I'm exhausted. Derek and I walk to our room. I lay down while he gets undressed. God.. those abs. Every time I look at them it's like the first time I've ever seen them. I know that's sounds stupid but it's true. My hormones are going crazy making me hornier. Fuck stop it Jada! Stop looking at him and go to sleep. And when you wake up you tell Derek to take you to a pharmacy or something. We need to know for sure.
Derek comes laying down facing me and he kisses me goodnight. I turn around the other way so I won't do anything dumb. "Ma why your turning away from me?" Ugh. "I'm just sleepy baby.. goodnight." I'm such a liar, haha. All of a sudden I feel his arms around my waist. And he travels to my stomach lifting up my shirt. "Are you okay my baby?" I feel him running his hands around my stomach. "Yeah." I answer back.
But no response from him. Was he asking me?I suddenly feel like my heart just dropped. Holy shit.. does he know?
Holy shit! Um.. hello ;)
Sorry I've been a ghost for the past year I actually didn't have the spirit to write anymore.. I started this when I was like obsessed with Derek and stuff but.. I don't know him like that I lost interest a long time ago.. but you see Ima keep writing! So yeah.. CLIFFHANGER, I'll update when I have the chance to. :) bye 💓 ( lol since when did I use emojis in my stories?)
