Will I ever love again

On a Date with....

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I'm on my way to a date with Dylan I am a player so this will be the first then like after becoming boyfriend and girlfriend I'm going to dump him after like a week has passed then I will date Josh the one that I had met first.I met Dylan during Math his last name is Flores.And I thought why not date him since he had asked me out during class it was like "Hey,Audrey" Dylan had said while giving me a flirt face I would use "Hey Dylan (winking)" I say while giving the same flirty look I would give to all the other guys "I wanted to ask you,if you would come on a date with me?" "Sure anything for you charming" I say while kissing him on the lips even though our date hasn't started yet.
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We right now are at Red Lobster and this reminds me of how he had taken me to this place when we had first started dating.Oh and it's not Dylan who am talking about."Wow. Is this how you impress all of the girls you take?." "No. 'Cause I haven't even dated anyone yet,the only person I took is the beautiful girl that I'm looking at right now" "Oh so you're thinking about dating someone else since the yet has told me you want some more girls rather than being with me" I say while staring at him but then I start thinking about how I had stared at him and the way I stared at my ex boyfriend which was the same way but then I think no you can't love again."So um, Dylan what do you like to do?" I say while looking down when I had stopped staring," Well, I like to.... I would like to know what is wrong with you?" He says in a sad way "There's nothing wrong with me (quivering like I was about to burst in tears) " I say directly looking at him in a fake smile."You know.... I actually have dated and I didn't want to tell you because I was afraid if you knew that you wouldn't accept this date" He says looking embarrassed and what happened next is that I leaned in to give him a kiss on the cheek but I start having this feeling that I don't ever want to have in my life."Uh sorry" I say again looking down the floor feeling a bit embarrassed "You don't have to apologize I enjoyed the kiss that you gave me on the cheek" "So um,let's get on with our date!"
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At my apartment I start thinking I have to forget about him and get on another date after all he hasn't asked me to be his girlfriend or anything like that.So that means I can forget about what I feel about him, ooh great I have a guy in my mind and I know exactly who it will be.