Will I ever love again

Love

Maybe what I felt last night wasn't anything maybe it was just me being paranoid or something but I have to forget about it I have to it's nothing I should be worrying about right now. *inhales* *exhales* I just have to relax forget everything it's for the best. Maybe I should go out with Carson the 'hot guy' who likes to play with girls so might as well date a well known player. Later when I go walking to the park I see someone or something unexpected that I wish I hadn't seen because what I see catches me off guard. Suddenly I feel someone tapping me on the shoulder which makes me jump and I say," Holy Jesus! You scared me! Dylan! Why?!" He looks like he also got startled by my reaction," Sorry Audrey! I didn't mean to scare you. I'm sorry!" "*sigh* It's alright. It's not like you almost gave me a heart attack or anything." Hopefully he gets my sarcasm Hahah! I mean...wait...never mind." So what were you looking at. If you don't mind me asking." "It's...nothing...really." Maybe I shouldn't have paused he would think something is really wrong, I said it once again so that he wouldn't think anything bad would happen." It's nothing really." "Mhm *nod* so what were you staring at then?" "Er...Umm like I said to you before twice already nothing." Hmm... Something is strange and off about him I should ask," Hey. Can I ask you something?" "Hmm? What is it?" "Well it's just that-" "Hey! Want to get some ice cream." Did he know what I was about to ask," Sure but I wanted to tell you that if something is going on with you?" "N-No why w-would you ask that?" "*shock* Eh eh eh... It's just that *sigh* nothing." In relief I don't know if something happened to him or who he may be with. I try to ask again later on when we were finished with our ice cream. "Do you like someone and if you do can I ask and know who it may be?" He looks red like as if he were blushing maybe just maybe he is with someone,"*sigh* Yes." "Hmm? Yes what?" "Yes I like someone and with someone." "Oh. Who is it that you like?" I'm so happy and excited for him,"It's Evelyn." Woah he likes her man I wish I was... "You like her. Maybe you should ask her out." "I already have and she said yes." "Oh. You have. Well that's good for you." I try and smile as I hear this news that he had told me. I never want to learn to love.
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*sigh* Why did I even bother with him why did I even bother trying to be a playette it never works out for me I always end up falling in love with someone but why, does someone really want me to fall in love with you.