Will I ever love again

Heartbroken

It's Monday now another day of school and yet I'm still wondering why he never came to pick me up and why Eva is living here and see if she's hiding something." Good Morning,Mom!" and I also wonder what my mom was doing when she was supposed to come to my room and help me pick,she also never did apologize. What is going with my life."Hello? Mom?!" I ask then wonder why she didn't answer me is she sleeping late again or is she sleeping with another guy again!"Eh! Mom what the heck happened here! Mom th-this isn't like you what has gotten into you! Whatever you're about to say I don't care because I'm heading to school.Ok!BYE MOM!" I slammed the door right when she was about to say something I didn't want to hear it. And I don't ever want to hear anything else or even say somethings and it's time to head to school right after I get dressed because other wise I would be *Ahem* clothes-less.
~At school~
"Good Morning,School!" I say to myself out loud and it's a good thing no one heard because if they did they would have commented on what I say since these people always comment on everything even the little things.
*During P.E.*
     Ok my second favorite class surprisingly,anyways let me just get into my P.E. clothes otherwise coach will get mad at me. Right when I was about to walk I heard some girl talking about another girl on how Josh had cheated on me and that is when I realized that in that moment he never came to pick me up for that f*****g reason that player. But that is also when I realized am a playette as well so I shouldn't get emotional over some stupid guy or boy whatever he is because then I will get back my feelings that I had before I even became like this and luckily no one in this school knows who I was in middle school and hopefully there is no one. I better get back to focusing on P.E. otherwise Coach Hearth WILL get mad.
~Later on~
Now that I'm thinking about it I-I might actually be heartbroken because of Josh once again like how I felt when I was dating him,Josh and Dylan but why are these feelings returning to me. I DON'T want to feel like this any longer I need to move on once again.Ugh! I just hate it so much that I learned about love and having feelings about boys! This shouldn't have happened to me but why me!
~After School~
      I have to talk to someone about this like May,Grace,Ana,Amelia or Luna who knows maybe one of them or possibly all of them would listen but there is one more person who I can think about it's Eva and I know we just met but I can get an opinion about this. I will talk about this to her tomorrow right now is not a good time plus she may be busy with something. Then while am at it I can make her my friend then I will remind myself to ask her about why she acted so strange and I know it sounds weird but I'll figure out a way or a way that she spills the beans.