03/08/16, 8:08
trapped.
trapped in this living pit of hell.
in the body
of swirling unhappiness,
suffocating me by the second.
tired.
tired of drowning into
a bottomless pit with
no beginning or end.
bold with glittering silence
intoxicating pure vulnerability.
numb.
unfelt, unspoken
this strange feeling.
permanent feelings
in temporary moments.
this great high,
please, i beg,
please don't leave.
broken.
broken pieces, a broken self
weakly mended by broken pieces.
beautiful but deceiving
getting a inner reflection of
the bold ugly glare
hidden by the deception
of a beautiful face.
red.
the colour that defines it all.
alluring, mysterious but comforting.
the romantic glow of smooth red lines
the quintessence of blood red
clouding the void.
one day,
i'll be free.
free from the agonizing pain
of violent ropes knotting me down.
harsh lines defining the hardships
masked with a coy smile.
maybe.
i'll finally show the world
who i am.
two worlds, two lives
coming together as one.
happiness.
seeking solstice in unfamiliar arms
unusual but understanding
don't fret my love, it's okay.
okay to be enamoured.
entranced by more
than one person.
wait.
i don't have to do this.
I don't have to wait.
i can end this.
the pain, the lingering misery
let it be
no more.
soon.
i'll fly
float effortlessly into
the bright blue sky.
it'll all be done and
over with. yesterday
today, tomorrow
perhaps forever.
at last.
i can breathe
release the bonds
of fear itself.
at last, i'll make it.
i made it.
it's done. it's over.
i'm finally there.
laying peacefully
on the other side.
~ n.d. ~
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abstruse. // poetry
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