THIS WILL NEVER DIE (Boyxboy)

PART 2

At Benji's party I arrived 20 minutes early, I walk up to his front door and as soon as I knocked, Benji aswerd with a huge smile, then it dropped as he took a good look at my hair, Benji looked at me horrified for agood 3 seconds, he spontainiosly grabbed my my hand and dragged me in slamming the door hard behind us. " O my god Baby you look so sexy" his voce was husky as he grabbed my hips and pushed me against the door, he kissed me hard and long pulling at my hair tillting my head up to his.

"BENJAMIN" His mam's gruf disembodied voice came from behind us. Benj moved away from me fast and stood beside me quickly curling his hand in mine. Benji then looked up at her defensively.

"Mam" benji' voice was flat I looked up at at her wearily.
" How could you keep seeing this FAGGOT when I told you not to. I even told you he would poison you, turn you into a devil, but did you listen obviously not. " his mam's voice was brittle as she ponted an accusing finger at me.

Benji's hand tightened around mine,his bright green eyes darkened with a mix of sadness and anger.
"Come on Ash, were leaving this witch hear" Benji's voice was grittle as he turned round and opend the front door Benji then stormed out leaving the door wide open, I sent his mam daggers whilst slamming the door for good measure behind us.

" Hey Benji sorry I am a little early" Lauren dives into Benjis arms excitedly and kisses him before ether of us could react.

Jealousy rushes over me, I glare at them, I force myself to look away so I don't get tempted to rip her head of and punch Benji in the face, Benji lets go of my hand and puts his arms around Laurens waist deepening their kiss.

I walk away feeling jealous, betrayed and used as I always do when I see Benji with Lauren how they can be so open and me and him can't be that way with each other.

Tears run down my face I quickly wipe them away feeling helpless and useless to Benji.

I keep walking down the street until I see my nans place and decide to go visit her since I don't want to phone my mam to pick me up since I probably look mess she would probably just say she was right he wouldn't break up with Lauren as soon as his mam found out he was with me.

I pace debating if I should smoke before or go straight to the front door, I decided to go straight to the door.

My nan answerd the door, as soon as I see her fresh tears run down my face and a grab her into a huge hug I stand there sobbing for good five minutes it would have been longer but she pulled away, my sobbs turned into hikups as she spoke
" dear boy were you born in a barn. You don't dive on a defenseless old woman before I have a chance to close the door behind us" she smiles kindly at me as pulls me in more by my shaking hand befor firmly closing the door behind us.

"N,n,nana" I stutter trying to tell whats wrong but I end up sobbing again I wipe my shaking hand over my eyes, my nan leads me into the kitchen "cup of tea love" I nod my head at her as she walks over to the kettle.

When she looks over to me she tuts at me and she shakes her finger before saying sternly " now, now stop that or I will end up crying with you and you now that" she puts a box of tissues on the table by me, I look up at her and take a tissue sniffling I wipe my eyes with it .

" Tell me what's wrong Ash"my nan said sitting by me smiling
"Leon said he would break up with the girl hes with if he cane out to his mam but I know now he was lying" I looked down at my fidgeting hands.

" well then cariad 'darling' I think you should just go back there and confront him" she looked at me sternly and nodded her head
" ok, yeah I will do that" I said as confidently as I could. " Thanks nan" I stood up and hugged her tightly " please don't tell mam about this ok" I said jogging out of the kitchen towards the front door.