Four and Tris - If things were different (no war)

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I meet with Christina in the pit and I'm not sure how I'm feeling. I want to tell her so bad so she can help me but I just can't. It's too embarrassing. She keeps asking me if I'm okay and I know I need to do a better job of hiding this, I lie and tell her it was about the fear landscape, but I didn't even go in mine. I look across the pit and see him standing by the chasm, in conversation with Eric but looking right at me. I know he deserves an explanation but there's just nothing I want to say. I turn my back so I can't see him anymore and I'm looking directly at Christina. 

"Where's Will and Al?" I ask, they're usually with Christina all of the time.

"Will wanted to get a tattoo and Al went too, I was going to but he wanted to surprise me."

"Why?" Why would Will want to surprise Christina.

"Oh my gosh! I forgot to tell you as you've been so distant recently, Will and I are sort of a thing now." She says almost squealing and jumping in for a hug. I hug her back and pretend to get excited with her. She's right though, I have been distant and I need to come back. I'm not losing my friends. I can't help but feel a slight amount of jealously though, I wish I was confident enough to just be someone.

We walk around the Dauntless HQ laughing and joking about different things that have happened recently, when we bump into a boy I know as Uriah. 

"Tris and Christina, right?" His eyes are big, matching his smile. 

"That's right." Christina returns the smile, as do I. 

"I'm Uriah, I've heard about you Tris, you seem cool. You should both come and hang with us some time." He says as he's walking away, obviously in a hurry to get somewhere. Christina nudges my arm and we both laugh. I'm the first to jump off a building and suddenly everyone knows me, it's so weird. 

We continue to walk around for hours until Four approaches us. Christina visibly becomes more tense and starts to shy away. He has his instructor face on and nods at Christina. 

"Tris, I need to talk to you, follow me." I look to Chris, confused and she dismisses herself back the way we came. 

I follow him, round many corners and down many hallways I've never seen before here in Dauntless. It was like he was getting us lost in a maze but eventually we ended up in a small room, it had a computer and a desk and that's about it. He pulls out a chair for me to sit on and he leans against the table. 

"This is my office when I'm not training people, it's one of the only places I can openly say what I like as it has no cameras or anything watching or listening." I look around again at the empty space and wonder why he's brought me here. I guess this is the perfect place to talk about how I'm Divergent and what I can do now in my landscapes. 

"Okay." I say as if I'm missing the point of what he's saying. 

"Tris, I like you." The four words leave his mouth and I completely lose my breath. I stare at him for a minute completely in shock and unable to say anything. This is all so real, I have to go. I stand up but before I can turn or anything he gently takes my wrists. "I'm sorry, I should have known you don't feel the same, don't go."

"That's not it," I say, "it's the complete opposite."

Without having a chance to realise what's going on he pulls my wrists closer to him and out lips touch. My hands find their way to his shoulders and his to my waist. I begin to kiss him back and it feels so right. We kiss for a few minutes before I pull away and don't even try to hide the smile that appears across my face, that only grows bigger when I notice he's smiling too. 

"We have to keep this a secret until initiations over." I breathe and he nods. That's all I have to say, the rest of me is completely speechless and dead still, but I have never felt more alive.