differently the same | lesbian love story

✁meet: Olivia Kingsley

So, I'm Olivia Kingsley. I'm 16 years old and known as the 'girly girl' in school. Also, I'm one of the popular girls because of my best friend Ally. Everybody thought it was fun being popular in high school, getting so much attention from boys. But little did they know, I hated it. Still I held up my reputation. Why? Because I didn't want anyone to find out my secrets. Yes, I said secrets. I actually have two of them.

I've lived in the same house for 16 years. The same neighbourhood, the same city. I live in Sydney. You think it must bore you. To always be in the same place. It does get boring, especially when  you're an only child and your parents are never home.

Maybe that's why I'm so popular. I've got kind of famous parents. My dad has an own talk show on TV and my mom is the best lawyer in town. We have a big house, a big garden and ofcourse, a maid. I get everything what I want because my parents think that's how to take care of your kid. Our maid Michelle has practically raised me instead of my parents.

I always hear everyone talking about how they wish they had my life. Famous parents, so much money. But actually, it's a very lonely life. Sometimes my world gets a little black and a few months ago I found a way to give it a bit of colour. It's not a good way though. It's one of my secrets. And if this comes out I'll probably be hated by the whole entire school.

My other secret isn't really normal either. If this comes out I'll also probably be hated by the whole entire school. I mean, it isn't normal to not pay attention to any boy and look at girls thinking they are hot. So I guess you could say I've not came out yet. I probably won't while I'm still in high school. You fit in or you don't. And if you don't, you really have to have a lot of confidence to kind of survive. And I don't have that, at all. No-one knows the real me and it already freaks me out thinking about showing someone the real me. Not even my best friend knows who I really am. I just walk next to her with the same attitude and the same 'confidence', but it's all fake. 

I love to play the piano and to read, but only Michelle knows that. I mean, I don't wanna be called a booknerd because I love books.

So actually my life in high school is one, big fat lie. High school actually freaks me out, but everyone thinks the opposite.