I'll Miss You (Louis Tomlinson Cancer FanFiction)

You Will Have To Wait

Jasmine's POV
I'm really scared of somthing, and that something is failure. I know that if I don't succeed in something then it's failure.

I was going to have a advanced test today. I was studying in my room until I get a knock on the door. "Come in!" I yell.

In comes Louis. "Hey, um you're not going to school anymore." He mumbled. "Why?" I wondered.

"Since you have." He paused. "Cancer, we have taken you out." He finished.

This meant I never had to see Lizzy EVER again! "Yes!" I said in exitment. I was really happy until I start to feel my stomache churn inside.

"Hey Louis, can you leave for a minute." I say shoving him out of the door. I run inside the bathroom and close the door behind me.

I hover over the toilet to puke. "Jasmine, are you alright?" I hear Louis call from the other side of the door.

"Yes, I'm fine!" I call back.

I can't do this anymore. I need to stop this pain. I need to stop living. Lizzy was right, I'm nothing to them. They don't l need me.

I'm useless.

I grab a razor off of the bathroom counter. I slowly bring it to my wrists.

"No Jasmine!" I think. My mind was telling me no, but my body was telling me yes.

I slowly drag the razor across my skin. Making a fresh cut, I flinch in pain.

"Stop Jasmine." I tell myself. I keep making cuts. "Jasmine, what are you doing?" I hear Louis ask.

I don't answer. I look up from my wrist and to the door. The doorknob was wiggling.

"Jasmine, open the door please." I hear Liam beg.

I look back down at my wrists. The warm, red blood trickling down my wrists to the floor. "I can't do this." I say throwing the razor on the floor.

I stand up and clean out my cuts. I brush my teeth thoroughly and flush the toilet. I slowly open the door.

Niall's eyes go wide. There was one thing I forgot to clean up, the razor and blood.

"What's that?" Harry asked shocked. I try to think of a reason.

"I'm coughing up blood!" I quickly say.

It wasn't exactly a lie. I started to couch up blood yesterday when I was at Naomi's.

The boys eyes go wide. "What!" They say. "Why is there a razor in the floor then?" Niall questions.

I accidently knocked it over, when I came to the bathroom." I say faking a smile.

Louis pulled me into a hug. "It's ok baby girl." He whispered in my ear.

Louis's POV
We see a razor and blood in the floor. No, she wouldn't do that, would she?

"What's that?" Harry asks pointing to the razor and blood.

"Oh! That! I'm coughing up blood!" She says quickly.

"What!" We all say at the same time. "Why is the razor in the bathroom floor then?" Niall asks.

"I accidently knocked it over when I came to the bathroom." She replied, a smile growing on her face.

I pull her into a hug. "It's ok baby girl." I whisper into her ear.

"I don't want to go." She says. "I don't want to leave you guys!" She cries bursting into fits of tears.

I sit in the floor holding her small body in my arms. "Everything will be ok, I'm sure of it." I say soothingly.

The boys neel down beside her. "It's ok, everything's fine" Niall says rubbing her back.

"Promise?" She asks looking up at all of us.

We all hesitate before we say "promise".

I see her eyes getting droopy. She's slowly falls asleep in my arms.

I wanted her to stay. I wanted her to be with me forever. I didn't want to have to say goodbye, not yet.

Jasmine's POV
I wake up in my bed. I look over to see Louis next to me.

I slowly get up being careful not to wake him. I check the time on my phone to see it is, 6:35 a.m.

I walk in my bathroom to see blood stains from last night. Memories flooded back into my head.

I shake my head trying not to remember. "I can't let the boys know." I say to myself.

I clean up the blood stains and set the razor back on the counter.

I brush my hair and brush my teeth. I then strip clean and hop into my shower.

I wash my hair with of course, coconut scented shampoo. I rinse it out and put conditioner in.

When three minutes passed I rinsed it out and stepped out of my shower.

I dry off, blow dry my hair, brush it again, and leave the room. I walk over to my closet to pick out something to wear.

I decide to pick out a Mickey mouse hoodie, a red skirt with white polka dots, and I slip on a pair of my red converses.

I put my hair in a high ponytail, and to top it all off I put in a red bow with white polka dots on it in my ponytail.

I walk downstairs to see Liam making pancakes, as the boys sit at the kitchen table waiting impatiently for breakfast to be ready.

I see Louis sitting at the table too. I guess he got up when I was in the bathroom.

All of the boys had messy, tangled hair, and were still wearing their pajamas.

I was about to go sit with them, until I hear them talking.

I stand at the bottom step where they can't see me.

"I don't know if we should tell her yet." Louis says. "Maybe we should wait." He adds in.

What should they wait to tell me?

A/N- Hi! How do you like the story so far?

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