Kiera,
Our friendship exists still does it not? You may think that I over think our friendship but it's complicated to explain. I shall give it a go anyway as you want to know don't you?
As you may know already never have I been so close to a girl the way that I am close to you. And I thank you for letting me be close to you. But people interpret that type of friendship in a myriad of ways - not all of them right. I feel that people are forcing you to change our friendship when you don't want to. I don't know if this is true. Is it? I feel that you have become a little distant towards me but I don't know. Have you? I feel that at times you don't want to talk to me, to have me around. I don't know. Do you? I feel at times that I am annoying you and that you would rather be with other friends than me; Callum, Jenny, Victoria. The rest are known by you. Do you? I feel at times pressured not because of our friendship but because of the interpretations of our friendship. Do you?
I have never been close to a girl before in the way that I am close to you because of my past. It doesn't deserve to be let out now so I won't let it out. Instead know this: a bad past leads to a troubled future.
You said that I don't need to explain anything to you if I don't want to. Yet I did. Why I did is a mystery to me and one that I intend to solve soon. You probably hold the answer to that mystery.
What gets broken without being held?
Jacob x
