Finding Faith

Chapter Six: Sweet Aurora

I love him. I simply love him. I Aurora Reid love Alex Acevez. How did this happen? I never let anyone in. Why is it so easy for him to see right through me. I build walls and he tore them down without even making a single sound. Should I trust this feeling, should I let myself feel again? All I've ever know is hurt. Betrayed by many and back stabbed by most. Why does he make it feel so easy to love him? I feel no regret neither doubt about him. He is just perfection in my eyes. Theres nothing he can do wrong. There's just something about him that makes me feel like I can't be without him. When I look into his eyes I feel like there is no place a rather be. When he touches me I feel this spark go off inside me. When I hear his voice is like listening to the sweetest melody. His presence just makes me feel like the happiest girl in the planet. I don't care what people say, I feel what I feel and no one can change that. No one can get in the way of what I'm feeling. People talk but they will never understand what goes on in my heart just by hearing his name. Today I saw and right In front of me was everything I've ever wanted. I wanted the good, the bad, the crazy, the sweet, the happy, the sad. I want everything with him. I'm willing to put in everything I have to be happy with him. I don't know if he is willing to do the same. I wish I could get into his head and read his mind. I wish I could be in his shoes for a day and understand what he feels for me. It is really hard to believe words but actions speak louder than words and I just think he is amazing. What he says he acts upon. I have a song by Taylor Swift that I listen to a lot ever since I found out he had a girlfriend.

"You're on the phone with your girlfriend
She's upset, she's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do.

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night.
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like.
And she'll never know your story like I do.

But she wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain
And I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time.

If you could see
That I'm the one
Who understands you.
Been here all along.
So, why can't you see
You belong with me,
You belong with me.

Walk in the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be.
Laughing on a park bench thinking to myself,
"Hey, isn't this easy?"

And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town.
I haven't seen it in a while
Since she brought you down.

You say you're fine I know you better than that.
Hey, what you doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels,
I wear sneakers.
She's cheer captain,
And I'm on the bleachers.
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time.

If you could see
That I'm the one
Who understands you,
Been here all along.
So, why can't you see
You belong with me.

Standing by and waiting at your backdoor.
All this time how could you not know, baby?
You belong with me,
You belong with me.

Oh, I remember you driving to my house
In the middle of the night.
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're 'bout to cry.
I know your favorite songs,
And you tell me about your dreams.
Think I know where you belong,
Think I know it's with me.

Can't you see
That I'm the one
Who understands you?
Been here all along.
So, why can't you see
You belong with me.

Standing by and waiting at your backdoor.
All this time how could you not know, baby?
You belong with me,
You belong with me.

You belong with me.

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?
You belong with me."
                                           ~Taylor Swift

That song really makes me think. It describes how I've always felt. He didn't laugh with her. His smile wasn't as sweet. I can make him smile and be truly happy. I want that chance. So many "what if's" that go through my mind. I rather have a life of "oh well's" than what if's.

He doesn't really know how much he means to me. I love all his flaws, his imperfections his mistakes. When I first saw him I honestly didn't know he was gonna be this important to me. I love that feeling I get when I see him smile everyone says you only fall in love once but that's not true because every time  I see him I fall in love with him all over again. We spend the whole weekend talking about our feelings. Finally it was time for school again. They knew more about each other than ever. Finally the moment she's been waiting for.