Heart Broken (mithzan x reader) {Finished}

Chapter 14

(Warning video above has swearing in)
Y/n PoV
After we had our little make out session we headed to the beach. "Max I love you" I said "I love you too Y/n" Max replied. I put my headphones in and played 'I'm not okay (I promise) - My Chemical Romance' which sort of made me feel better about myself but at the same time it also stops me from hurting myself. "Y/n what you listening to" Max asked "I'm not okay (I promise) by My Chemical Romance and it sort of helps me stop thinking about hurting myself" I said slowly letting go of Max's hand. "Why do you want to hurt yourself Y/n?" Max questioned "because I feel like I don't deserve you and that you are a nice person and you love someone who is broken and will probably never be able to be fixed" I said to Max as tears escaped my from my eyes "shh shh shh it's okay Y/n every thing is okay don't worry about that. I love you for all of you and that means if you are broken I will fix you to make you happy. I know you have a broken heart and I want to fix that because I love you so much that it could kill me" Max said while hugging me tight "okay Max I understand how you feel now and I realised that I feel exactly the same but I don't want to hurt you" I said as I started to cry "hey I know but it's okay anyway let's go and pack and get the next plane back home" Max said "we don't have to leave if you don't want to" I said to Max "no I need to talk to some people anyway so we need to go back early" Max said grabbing my arm and took me to our room to pack our bags. We have only been here for 4 days which is okay with me but I think Max wanted to stay the whole time and I messed things up again. As Max was packing his Bags I went in the bathroom and locked the door and saw the razor on the sink and I picked it up and started to cut my arms again and this time I had nothing to stop me from hurting myself and I felt better after 5 cuts on my arm.

Max PoV
Y/n walked in to the bathroom to grab her tooth brush and other things. She has been in there for ten minutes, oh no I forgot I left my razor on the sink. I ran to the door and it was locked so I knocked on the door there was no reply. I kicked the door down to find Y/n's arm covered in blood. " shit why did you do this to yourself why Y/n why. I love you and it hurts to see you hurt yourself like this" I said starting to cry " this is why I think we should take a break so that we can both think about what's going to happen" Y/n said "no I don't want to go on a break I want to marry you I was taking you to the beach to propose. I love you so much Y/n and I'm not going to lose you because of this." I said getting closer to Y/n "Max I'm so sorry I didn't know. I love you too but are you sure you want to be with me for the rest of your life because I don't think I will ever stop hurting myself" Y/n said looking into my eyes "yes I will always be by your side and I don't ever want to lose you" I said as I picked her up and took her to the bed as grabbed the med kit from my bag and then started to bandage her arm up.

-time skip to Washington, because I don't want to write about the plane-

Y/n PoV
We landed in Washington and I was surprised to see F/n and Adam at the airport. "Y/n" F/n said "F/n" Y/n said as you both hugged each other because you haven't really seen each other in person for along time. "It's been so long since I've seen you" F/n said as she gave me a hug "it's been 4 years I think and it's nice to see you again." I said hugging her back "okay girls we need to go now" Adam and Max said at the same time. "Okay" me and F/n replied.