Heart Broken (mithzan x reader) {Finished}

Prequel

(A/n Maxishbae suggested I do a prequel but it's going to be all in one chapter because I really don't want to create a new story title because I'm lazy lol. So I decided I would to make the readers happy) (also the songs in this are in Japanese but they have English subtitles. Anyway hope you enjoy)

Boyfriend one :James
Y/n PoV
My name is Y/n and I'm 16 years old just finishing high school when I met this cute guy named James and he was the hottest guy in school who I have had a crush on for ages.
"Y/n, can I ask you a question?" James asked "yes but why are you talking to a nobody like me?" I questioned "because you are somebody to me and I wanted to know if you are dating anyone" he asked a bit shyly "oh okay and no I'm not dating anyone" I said trying not to blush. "Good then would you like to be my girlfriend?" James asked "I would love too" I replied back.
'OMG my crush just asked me to be their girlfriend. I'm so happy right now' I thought to my self. "Awesome want to go get something to eat?" He asked again "yes that would be lovely" I replied and followed him with our hands holding each other's.

-a month later-
"James why do you have a knife?" I asked trying not to be scared of him "because I want to hurt you" James replied "but why do you want to hurt me" I questioned "because beautiful girls should have scars of were they hate themselves and you don't have any and you need them so that other guy will love you" he asked in a scary tone. "James your scaring me please stop it, you have had your fun and games" I said quietly "oh have I now the why, won't you do it with me?" He questioned with a smirks "because I'm not ready yet" I replied as a tear fell down my cheek "I don't care if your ready or not you don't love me that's why you don't want to do it well you don't get a choice this time sweet heart" he said as he grabbed some rope and tied my hands to the bed pole and then put a cloth around my mouth. "Ahhhh" was all I could say as he was focusing his d*** in to me and it was not how I wanted my first time to be. The cloth moved a bit so that I was able to speak "p-p-p-please s-s-stop p-p-p-p-please" I sobbed "oh no baby I won't stop you should of just told me to go away when I asked you out and you wouldn't be in This situation." He said horribly "I wish I did turn you down" I said out if confidence " you gonna wish you never said that" James said as he grabbed the knife and started to cut my wrists to leave his mark at this point I couldn't do anything to stop him and every cut hurt twice as much as the last one. He did the same to my other arm as well.
"Are you happy now?" I questioned him "yes very, now I know you will never find a guy who will love you more than me because they will think you are hideous" he replied with a smile "you know what you maybe right but I would rather be on my own forever than with you." I spat at him and then kicked him when he was about to hit me but I got him were it really hurts. I managed to get the rope off my hands and off the bed. As soon as I looked back I could see that he was never In love with me ad only wanted to use me and hurt me. I ran out the door and as far away from were I lived I had to leave the country for a while.

-one year later-

Boyfriend 2 : Patrick
I returned to the USA after a year,I'm now 17 almost 18 and it felt weird returning to were I used to live. I went to visit my parents and they understood why I left but we're sad that I did. I went to the nearest coffee shop to get a coffee/tea. I walked through the door and bumped into someone and I managed to make them spill their drink all over them "omg I'm so sorry let me buy you another one" I said still apologising "it's okay really I should of looked where I was going" the guy said, "well I'm going to get you another one and my name is Y/n" I said walking up to the counter " you really don't need to and my name is Patrick, nice to meet you Y/n" Patrick replied "well I want to get you another one and it's nice to meet you too Patrick" I replied back shyly. We sat down at a table in the coffee shop and talk for two hours, then we exchanged numbers and went our separate ways. About 10 minutes after leaving the coffee shop I got a message and it was from Patrick
(P=Patrick) (Y=Y/n)