The Poems I can't Deny

Mary-Cruz

I love her so much

it hurts when I can't tell her everything,

She understands my ways and my thoughts

I don't know where I would be without her.

She is so much for me that I can't even begin to describe 

My best friend, my sister, my confidant.

Why must I ruin what we have with the thoughts of my past,

She deserves better ,

an honest friend that gives trust and trusts.

But I can't be that,

yet she is still my friend 

I cannot fathom why 

but she is.

All I can do is hope and pray that she won't see this horrible person 

That I am, that I have vainly tried to change.