YOUR POV:
iwas pushed down back on to the bed by the doctor's and nurses I am guessing.i didn't even try to struggle I just straight away let them push me back on to the bed, I was terriefied,i knew what happened, It kept repeating in my head for god knows how long'h-h-ho-ow lo-ong h-have I?'
'not that long sweetie, if it was you wouldn't be alive, your lucky'the nrse turned around and went outside leaving me with a doctor.
'why?'i said almost as awhisper.
'pardon?'he looked up to me from his clip board.
'why?'he looked puzzled'hy am I here? why am I alive?yes it was hell up there but I chose to go there'he looked speechless, unknowning of what to say.'you have no idea what my life is like, no one there for me, no friends,no one that cares, I messed up my life'
'sorry madame,but you must be mistaken, you have plenty of people waiting for you outside'
'bullshit' I whispered almost to myself.
'if you dot believe me look out that window'he turned back to his clipboard filling out something. I looked through the door window as suggested.there was the back of a women, it looked like the nurse, she was talking, she was in the way I couldn't see who she was talking to though,she moved her head so I could sneak a peak.i saw someones cheek,tear stained and a hand going past it, running fingers through their hair, boy hair,HIS hair,some males hair,she turned her head to talk face someone else, making me catch a glimps of this males two eyes, puffy red glossy eyes, raining from sadness.the eyes, full of worry and pain even regret, those eyes looked away from the nurses eye contact past the window to the gound, until he realised somethingin the window and straight away looked up again tomeet mine,my eyes meet with Louis'. he stood there in shock, eyes widened, staring at me, he pushed the nurse to the side and came closer, I saw other people thereas he pushed her out of the way, he sped walked in to the room.di hecare?. I had no expression apart from shock and speeachless staring at him.he rushed towards me.
'Y/N!!'his arms flung around me, I did nthing, I was frozen, in shock.he pulled away.'baby, its me, its ok, im sorry im a jerk, I caused this, I am sorryi-i-'he struggled of words to say, I was just still froze, staring at his eyes'i -I miss you'i looked away'i am a nervous wreck with out you' he paused a bit'i'm just glad your alright, I know this is a lot to take in, right noe babe, but I stil love you, you need to know'i looked back at him, I couldn't physically speak, I mean what do you say to someone you break up with and love and they tell you they love you too straight after you survive suicide?
'I-its, I-its just to-o mu-uch' I whisper in a slutter,he raised his hand and placed it on my cheek and stroked it.
'I know,i'm sorry,and I wanna gve you this' he removed his hand and put it in his pocket searching for something , he puled it out and it was the locket,he put it around my neck.'i know you may not want to go out withme and we may not be right now, but I will keep this promise this time, even as just best friends, I love you both ways and akkways will'i held the locket that was round my neck.
'y-you still care?'i ask quietly.
'of course I do, I just, I ws stressed out at the time and that week, I didn't know what to do, I got your messages only the morning found you dead, do you know what sight that must have been for me?'
'yes'i said scared
'y/n, you don't you know what it is like to b-' I cut him off.
'I was in hell, Louis, death is hell, but then again life is hell, no one was here for me, I had no one for comfort, I lost my appitite, I went, insane, and mad, I talked to myslf I worried constantly if any one saw me, they would have sent me to an asylum I swear,cos no one was there, not even a family member or a friend, I thought death would be better, but no, do you know what that was like? death?'
'n-no' he said shyly
'it was the day I killed myself on repeat from no ones point of view, saw I saw what I did that day, repeativly, I felt the pain, I felt the sorrow, I saw the pain and sorrow, I saw wat I looked like when I was dead. so yes I do know what it was like, I also know what hell is like'
'I-i'm s-sorry'tears fell of his face onto the duvet of the bed, to join my puddle of tears.
'guessing you have read the letter since you hadthe locketthen.he looked up and nodded.'i still love you too lou,i just don't know if you can keep a promise anymore, I wanna be us again but us with trust, I don't know ifi would prefere to have us with out the trust and wait for the trust not knowing if it will ever be there again or have just me and friends whoi cantrust'
'why cant you have friends you can trust and a boyfriend you are learning to trust?'
'cos I may never gain the trust'
'well, you will I know you don't trust me with promises but I promise you will trust me, I will give everything I have got to make you trust me, so y/n, will you take the honour in being my girlfriend who is being helped gain trust from her boyfriend by her and her boyfriend?'
I thought about it, I wasn't sure but I guess we both deserve a chance right?'i guess so'i leaned in and kissed him, gently until I looked behind himand saw heads peering through the window.i smiled at them, they were all beaming like a miracle happened, and I have to admit, it did happen, they were aall waving at me, I take it they couldn't all come in so they waited.
'miss y/l/n' I looked up at the doctor in the room, I totally forgot he was there.' you are back to normal except for one small change you nw suffer from asthma from the rope around you neck effection our breathing , so you have a prescription for an inaler, you are free to go, but be more careful in life, you left you friends heart broken'he andedme the prescriptionand walked off, I got out of thebed and walked out of the room,only to meet with 6 otherpeople charging towards me. there were even tears of joy ever wheren.
after all the reuniting and apoligisingect. I went downstirs with everyone and collected my inhaler and walked out the door into harry's car and I sat in the back with Louis, who was holding my hand.'babe?' I turned to face him.
'yeah?' I gave him a smile.
'now that I have made my promise, can you make your promise,promise me I wont ever loose you as a person and that you wont ever let yourself get hurt and you promise to take care of yourself and not to let any on do any thing to you, promise?'
'promise' I saud with a smile, he then lifted my hand towards his lips.
'I love you' he mumbled against my hand, and than kissed it.
' I love you too'i then felt something itching my neck, it was something on the necklace, I pulled it off, it was a piece of black and whit fur.'lou?'I asked confused.
he turned to me'yup?'
'why is there black and white fur on the necklace?'he then looked embarrest.
'well, erm.. I sort of, when I thought you were gone for ever I sort of..i sort of put it around the toy panda you put it the box..' he said unsure.
'you put a necklace around a toy panda?'he nodded embarrst.'aww lou!!!'he then looked confused'your so cute and sweet!'he then relaxed and gave a smile, I am definalty not losing this guy ever again.
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