Loving Grayson

Chapter 2

1:35 a.m.

   I still couldn't seem to shut my eyes. I had been laying in bed for what seemed like an eternity and was thinking about everything that had happened today. I was overwhelmed by all of this to say the least.
   I still loved him.
That was the thing that had been keeping me up for hours. It was something that I just wanted to deny and move on. But right when I saw him everything came rushing back. All the beautiful memories and feeling of happiness.
   But also the hurt and pain and everything that I had gone through. I so badly wanted it to be gone, all those memories and the feeling of emptiness that seemed to surround me everywhere I went.
   I wanted to scream and yell at him. I wanted him to know what he had put me through. But I knew I couldn't because in reality he was innocent. And even though I wanted him to not be innocent and be the one that had broken my heart intentionally so it wouldn't hurt as much whenever I tried to move on. I couldn't lie to myself and it wasn't fair to me or him.
   He didn't know what he had done and he didn't know what was to happen after he had decided to ask out Nicole. He didn't know how much pain he had put me through and for that I couldn't blame him.
  I let out a long sigh and shifted my position on my pillow. I let out a breath and finally closed my eyes as I let the darkness take over me.

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Light seeped in through the curtains as the sun began to rise. I could hear birds singing as they flew around with not a care in the world. I wish I didn't have problems. I wish that I could just fly around with no cares. Then life would be easy.
But life decided to suck for me so I began to get out of bed.
I walked towards my bathroom as I grabbed my phone along the way. I turned on one of my playlists and began to get ready. I had taken a shower the night before so I washed my face and brushed through my hair. I then headed to my closet and put on a quick outfit and continued towards my dresser.
   I put on a bit of makeup and then grabbed my backpack, phone, and keys and then headed down the stairs.
    I had been up all night and I was tired to say the least so I grabbed a glass of orange juice hoping that it would wake me up a little bit. I downed the drink and then headed out the door as I munched on a granola bar.
   I jumped into my black BMW and then started down the road towards my school. My Dad had woken me up right before he left to work and said there would be somebody coming over tonight so I had to be on my best behavior. It surprised me since we hardly talk mostly because he was always at work.
   It had been tough back in California mostly because I was missing my mom. We had been having a great time in Europe until she finally told me to stop running away from my problems and finally face high school. She wanted my last senior year of high school to be in California so I could fix old problems and maybe "reconnect with my friends." I knew my mom was right so I came back.
   I parked my car into a empty parking spot close to the entrance and grabbed my backpack as I got out of the car. In front of me was a couple heatedly making out causing an expression of disgust to wash over my face.
   "Excuse me?" I said annoyed as the couple continued to ignore me. I tried to walk away but each time they would block me. I huffed and unzipped my backpack. I grabbed an old water bottle from the day before and unscrewed the cap.
   I then began to pour the liquid all over the couple causing a shriek to come from the girl. She quickly turned around causing me to come face to face with Nicole. I widened my eyes, noticing that the couple that I had poured old water bottle water on was Grayson and Nicole. Oops.
   Nicole was pissed and I could practically see the steam coming out of her ears. Grayson was just frozen like a deer caught in headlights. I stifled a laugh as the drenched couple continued to stand there motionless. 
   I managed a small smirk and then side-stepped them as I made my way into the school. Damn I'm such a bad ass. Sike.
I continued towards my locker as I grabbed a few textbooks and headed towards the first class of the day. Yeay for me! (Please note the sarcasm)
I plopped down onto the seat and got comfortable as i placed my stuff on the desk. I was about five minutes early so I just sat there as I scrolled through Twitter and Instagram.
   I chair screeched besides me and a girl sat down. She had wavy, dark brown hair with a pair of dark brown eyes. She looked pissed and from the way I saw, didn't know that she was in the wrong seat.
   She huffed and started to bang her head on the desk continuously causing me to cringe for the sake of brain cells she was losing.
   "Penny for your thoughts?" I asked amusement laced through my voice as her head quickly shot up. Her eyes widened realizing she wasn't alone.
   "Shit, sorry I thought I was alone," she said with a sheepish grin. I laughed and looked at her as I waited for her to continue. Realization crept through her face as she remembered why I was waiting.
   "Well my asshole of a boyfriend... actually ex-boyfriend, cheated on me with some girl at a party he went to," she said annoyed. My eyes widened and a feeling of sadness crept over my face.
   "I'm sorry. He must have been a real jerk to cheat on a girl like you," I said softly. She gave me a grateful smile and brought her hand towards me.
   "My name is Blake and I think we're going to be great friends." I laughed at her straight-forwardness and shook her hand.
   "My name is Emery and I agree." We both smiled and laughed as we went back to our desks as the bell rang. Kids shuffled into the classroom followed by no Luke. Hmmm. I wonder where he is.

   After class was over, Blake and I exchanged phone numbers and agreed to sit with each other at lunch. During class I had found out that she had moved to California during her sophomore year which made sense since I hadn't seen her around during my freshman year. Blake was really nice and  pretty cool which made me automatically like her.
   I headed towards my next class and went to sit in the back, passing by annoying jocks and over hyped cheerleaders. I threw my backpack on the floor and slid into my seat.
A few minutes passed by as I continued to play with my pencil and tap along to different songs.
"Emery." I heard a firm voice say. I turned to look and met eyes with Grayson.
"What do you want Grayson," I asked softly as I focused back on the pencil that seemed way more interesting at the moment.
   "I don't get what your problem is. Stop trying to attack Nicole. I know your mad at her just because she stopped being friends with you in freshman year, but that doesn't give you the right to bully her!I don't even get what even I did to make you stop talking to me! Your so stubborn sometimes and you just push away anybody who tries to get close to you." He said frustrated as he ran his hand through his hair.
   I straightened in my seat and slowly looked at him. My eyes hardened as my hands clenched causing my knuckles to turn white.
   "Is that what you really think?" I asked coldly.
   "Yes!" He yelled as he threw his hands up in the air.
   "Well then, F you Grayson," I said as I flashed him the finger and turned back in my seat. He stood there for a few seconds later and then sat down in the seat next to me. The nerve of that guy!
I was so pissed at him. Not only because he decided to barge into the classroom and accuse me of things that weren't true. But because he actually believed what Nicole said. "I know your mad at her just because she stopped being friends with you in freshman year," I mimicked in my head. How could he believe her!? I guess all those years of friendship went down the drain.

It was currently my favorite time of the day. Lunch! Which meant food for me to eat.
The same dude from yesterday kept on accusing me of farting because my stomach kept grumbling so I gave him a taste of revenge.
Yesterday I had been pissed at the kid so I went to the nearest toy store and bought some like rotten egg spray, something like that. I then sprayed the kid with it and from there the plan took place.
Kids began to look at him funny and started to move their art supplies away from him. The best part was his face when he looked at them confused and then began to smell himself. I chuckled to myself and continued towards the cafeteria.
I went to the line and met up with Blake as we bought our lunches. I settled for my normal slices of pizza, while she picked burgers and fries. Friend goals am I right. Well we did just meet like 3 hours ago, but whatever.
As I walked towards the table a person from behind me shoved me onto the ground. MY PIZZA! I slowly got up and turned around as I came face to face with Nicole.
"What the hell is your problem," Blake yelled at her. The whole cafeteria quieted down as they watched the showdown between "the two ex-bestfriends". I gave Blake a grateful smile for sticking up for me.
"That's for this morning," she said as she examined her nails, completely ignoring Blake.
"Sorry about the water, I guess I accidently spilled it when I was vomiting from your PDA," I told her with a sweet smile plastered on my face. She gave me a hard look and tried to walk towards me until Blake tripped her causing the whole cafeteria to erupt in laughter.
"WHAT IS GOING ON HERE," a voice boomed causing the whole school to look in the direction of Grayson. He quickly made his way towards Nicole as he glared at me.
"Gummy bear, Emery's friend tripped me while I was walking," she said as she began to make fake tears. My face scrunched up in disgust. Really, "Gummy Bear"?
Grayson turned to me and stood up as he slowly walked towards me. I stood there with my arms crossed.
"I can't believe you would go that low to make your friend trip Nicole. That's not the Emery I knew," he said harshly, causing me to flinch. I sucked in a breath and walked closer to him.
"Maybe because the old Emery died three years ago. Along with her heart." I said, thick with hurt.
I saw a flash of emotion of emotion cross his face and was soon covered up with a cold glare.
"Just leave, Emery," he said weakly. I nodded once and walked past him as tears threatened to fall out.

Like I said, loving your best friend was doomed from the start.

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I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter. It made me want to cry :(