things I randomly write

sry but depressed

I just lost a friend that was very close to me and of course my head is thinking maybe I should just die

society today it's just suicidal people telling other suicidal people not to kill themselves 13 year olds are wanting sex 17 - 16 year olds are wanting to die 20 year old can't find love but everybody bats an eye I'm age 15 turning 16 next week

I lost a friend that me and meant a lot to me, me and him I thought we were going to date but I guess not because he thinks that he's not good enough for me but I'm the one who's supposed to be the judge of that, no one else just me
but that's fine because I guess I just lost another friend
you'll all tell me that he wasn't worth it but to me he was because he made me feel and that doesn't come often im a 15 year old who is thinking of suicide and of course all of you will tell me not to but then again you guys are probably just suicidal teens as well
if anyone reads this I probably won't kill myself but goddamn my head

I have multiple personality disorder and both of them were telling me that I should just end my life my Demons my battles that I fought I used to cut myself almost every night and cry in the process every night ever since I was 12
I have scars on my legs and arms just don't know what to do anymore you might call me a fake because I just said I was thinking of suicide but don't worry cuz I probably won't commit it but like I said
I'm living for my friends literally and that's it they're the reason I'm not going to but as soon as I lose them all it'll probably be a rope or a gun or knife me on the floor he hung up who knows but in the end I'll be dead.