*racial content* Justin I just don't get what the hell I did to make everyone want to go against me. For a while now some hackers have been threatening to release videos of me saying racist shit. They've released them this morning and everyone's been bashing me.
I was like 15 at the time and don't see why everyone wants to bring up the past. I've learned from my mistakes but now I have to explain this to my fans and those that I love.
The one person I'm really nervous to tell is Roquelle. This could potentially break us up and that's the last thing I want to happen between us.
I asked her to come over and she's just arrived. As I make my way downstairs my body begins to feel weak with how scared I am to tell her.
I open the door and we greet each other with a hug and kiss. I can tell she notices how nervous I am with the look she's giving me.
"Is everything alright?" She asks as we walk into my living room.
"Honestly, no it isn't" I answer her truthfully sitting down.
She sits down right next to me and rubs my back as I sit with my head in my hands.
"Baby,what's wrong?" She asks.
"I'll just show you" I say sighing. I pick up the tablet that controls the tv and turn it on. I open up the video, and warn her beforehand.
"This videos bad so just wait before you say something afterwards" I advise her as she just nods, I then press the play.
I can't even look at the screen as the videos playing. When it's finished there's just a silence between us. Then Roquelle begins to laugh.
"This is fake right?" She asks smiling.
"No it isn't, unfortunately it's real" I tell her with a serious face. Her facial expression changes instantly.
"Justin what the f-" she starts but I stop her.
"Let me explain this whole thing, I was fifteen I didn't realize how offensive and serious those words were these guys were threatening to leak these videos unless I paid them three million dollars which I didn't, I was being stupid and ignorant at the time but I've learned from that" I explain to her as she just looked at me intently.
"How did you not know how serious those words were Justin?"
"They were just never explained in depth to me but then Usher showed me videos and explained the history and I understood"
"So you truly learned from it?"
"Yes,yes I did and I just want to apologize to you because I know the medias going to be on your back about this all because of me" I apologize beginning to cry.
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"Justin don't cry, yes what you did was wrong and now is the time you pay for your actions but as long as you've learned from it and haven't used those words again then I totally forgive you" she spoke smoothly wrapping her arms around me.
"I don't know how I got so lucky, the fact that you can forgive me for something like this.."
"Well I love you and I'm always here for you,I know you're not racist,we all just sometimes speak without thinking about the severity of our words"
"I love you so much" I tell her giving her a peck on the lips.
Even though I've let down many of my fans,family and friends at least I still have Roquelle even though I probably did let her down,she still loves me.
