Ranger //ON HOLD//

Chapter Nine Her story

Btws this is a bad name. Okay know you will know her past and stuff

Silmaril's P.O.V

We had travled far in one day and as the light faded from the sky we made camp.

Then a few of the dwarves had started making stew and Nori comes over and says "would you like some stew miss?"

"Yes thank you." I reply and he hands me a bowl of soup.

We walk back over to the camp and I notice the dwarves all looking at me. "What?" I ask

"Nothing lass, the boys are just a curious bunch." Balin answers.

I put down my soup. "What is it they wish to know?" I ask.

He pointed to his own face guesturing to where her scar would have been on his own face.

"Ah yes that. Well that is quite a sad story." I warned them. " It was a time ago, I was in a battle." I say in a hushes voice.

The scene fills my mind.

"It was a night no one would forget. I was so young barley forty. I still remember the day. So many lives lost elves, dwarves, men, in that battle. I vowed to never speak its name again for the terrors it unleashes. There he was a mighty beast to behold. Full of fire and rage. He flew over the battlefield with one thought in his terrible mind. To kill and harm as many as possible." I shudder at the thought of him." He killed my whole family, my sister, my mother, my father,I had run away from them all. He made me watch. He killed them with one breath, his fire sweapt away and destroyed everything in his path. He marked me so I would never forget that terrible terrible battle." I finish looking up at thier faces lit by the light of the fire. "I vowed to kill that terrible beast one day, to get vengence on that thing that destroyed my family."

I got up from the fire and walked to where Fay was laying down and lie down facing the fire.

I had never told anyone of that day and though I didn't speak his cursed name they knew why I was here.

I was here to kill Smaug.

I was here to stop being the ranger I had always been, traveling with the remains of the Dunedain. I needed to acept the fact they were not coming back.

I walked over to where Balin was taking watch and sat next to him. "Go to sleep lass." He said, "You need it."

"I havn't slept in years, I don't think I'll be starting now."

"You have seen many sorows and you have every right to not explain why you do not sleep, but if you Foolish Gandalf.want to talk I'm here."

"Thank you. I guess it is because I have not seen my beloved for some time. I left, I had to I just couldn't stay. With him being a prince it was to much. It would have never ended well. So I left and travled. Being a ranger gave me the freedom I needed. I always liked the solitude. It left me with my thoughts. I needed that time to think. I will go back again but not yet. I am not ready to face him."

"Your story is a sad one lass. If I may how long have you been away traveling?" He asks.

I sigh, "Many a year, around five hundred to be exact." I turn and look at him.

"I didn't think you were that old!" He says suprised.

"Well thank you for that, that made me feel great." I laughed.

He just shook his head and went to wake up Kili for the next watch.

Kili sat down and looked at the fire for a long time

"What troubles you young one?" I ask kindly

He looks at me and sighs.

"How did you get over the terrible things in your past?"

"To tell you the truth, I never have and probably never will. It haunts me and me being the fool I am I just ran away from everyone and everything. My friends, my life , my job, my love." I said the last part quietly so I didn't think he heard me.

A silent tear creeps down my

"Who is he?" Kili asks

"The bravest warrior I have ever met, strong with blue eyes that shine like the sky. He is always kind and caring for everyone, well unless you anger him." I say

"I left because of him." Kili stares at me in sadness. " He said he loved me and would always love me, but I couldn't stay. I loved him so much and always had, but I was restless and still am." I sighed. "I havn't seen him for 500 years, and I don't know when I'll see him again." I say at last. "I'm sorry now I'm just blubbering over you."

"It's okay, dwarves and elves have never been freinds but I would be proud to call you one." He said.

I smiled and nodded we stayed in companiable silence for the rest of the night.