The Lonely Mermaid

My Happiness Attend Him

Rain's POV

     It had been weeks since I had seen or spoken to Connor. At this point I was beyond waiting for him. He clearly didn't want to make amends, so I no longer cared if he showed his face or not.

     Well... that was a lie. I still cared, but I wasn't going to let that keep me down when I had Kai to look after and take care of.

     He was a happy baby. Didn't cry for no reason. Sure he got fussy if he was hungry or his diaper was full, but those were legitimate causes for concern. He knew not to make me worry by crying at nothing. For a baby, he had great instincts.

      If only he had a father to share this with. If Connor would have just taken his head out of his ass, then I wouldn't be worrying like this. We could have been raising Kai together. As a family.

     But that wasn't possible. Even if Connor came to me right this moment, I would make him work for my forgiveness. I would give him hell before I let him back into my heart, and into our lives.

     Mama knew how I felt about him right now, but we were keeping Daddy in the dark for now. If I ever decided to forgive Connor, if he ever came around, I didn't want him full of lead before I made him suffer. And I know that Daddy would defend me to his last breath. He had been so thoughtful and loving and tolerant ever since he found out my secret. I knew that he was trying to make up for what he had done in the past.

     He was even happy about being a grandfather. He knew that Connor and I were having a fight, but he didn't know what had been said. He also knew that Kai wasn't mine biologically, and that he was also a mer, but he was happy for me. Although, he was on the fence until I explained how the bond is formed between mother and child in my species.

     Now he was a grandfather with a grandson to teach how to hunt and fish and other things I am not interested in. It was times like these that I wondered about mermaids eating fish. Was it taboo or was it completely normal? Either way, I'm getting off track here.

     Daddy was taking it remarkably well. Mama was over the moon. Connor was an asshat. Kai was an angel. 

     That about sums it up.

     I had learned that Kai was around 5 months old, so he could hold his head up on his own and was wanting to start crawling soon. He was growing up so fast and I wanted to savor every moment. He couldn't talk, but he was trying. He rattled off in baby speak every time you talked to him.

     My baby was the most precious thing in the world to me, so I wanted to get him everything he could possibly want. Mama and I went shopping the first day I got here. We came home with tons of baby clothes ranging from months old to toddler sizes. Mer age at the same rate as a human child, they just have a greater affinity for the water. So, included in the clothes that we bought, were baby swim clothes.

     I was taking Kai to swimming lessons every three days at a Mommy-and-Me swim class. It was geared towards mother's with small children who wanted to get out of the house and start their kids off early learning. Kai, of course, was the little star of the class who could paddle his arms and legs already. I felt like if I let go of him, he would just start swimming away.

     Today was one of our lessons, so I got his bag together and loaded him up in the car. I had traded my Camry in for a Forerunner, which had double to space inside and was much better in collisions. I was making sure that my baby was safe at all costs.

     After we pulled up to the building, I was getting Kai out of his seat  and he started his baby babble.

     "Are you ready for swimming baby? Yes you are. You love the swimming, right? Okay, well, let mommy get you out of the seat, okay? You have to get out of the seat before you can swim," I cooed at him, getting his giggly responses every time.