A/N: Oh wow, would you look at that, almost two weeks of not updating. Guys, I know I left you guys on a cliffhanger, but,,,,,,,,, I have no explanations for that. Lelelel, kek, banter, fish fish fish, no heart eye emoji, k bye. Enjoy.
Okay no guys, I actually do have an explanation. These past couple of weeks, my wifi is being a little shit. And it's inenabling me to post or write, etc. So I do hope you can forgive me. I'm trying my best. I'm even writing it on a notepad hoping that I could just copy paste here when wifi is good again. So yeah, please forgive me. I've made this extra long for you guys xoxo.
[Lachlan's POV]
I take in the scenery in front of me. Luscious in green with nature behind the wide blue crystal river. It was perfect, the most perfect moment I've felt in my life. The last moment I'll ever feel in my life.
I think it throughly, whether I should really proceed with this, until finally, I make up my mind. Hesitatingly, I slowly strap my ankle tight to the wheelchair I sit on, followed by one of my wrists. Tight enough so that with every force I have, I still can't undo it if I ever change my mind later on.
I slowly wheel myself closer to the edge of the dock with the one hand I have unstrapped left, and followed by strapping that hand. I stop, take a few breaths as I think it throughly. It seems that mind has set. Usually, when I'm in so much stress and thoughts, I just breath it all in and out and it would automatically go away. But this time, countless times I've tried doing it in hopes I change my mind, but it doesn't.
I take one final deep breath, and fidget myself in the wheelchair so that I'll fall over the edge, and I did. I slowly went down deep in the river, until I hit rock bottom. Drowning. I struggle to breathe as I run out the last breath of oxygen I have left, until finally I close my eyes and never open them back.
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"Lachlan..." a voice calls out to me, bringing me back to reality from that dream, that nightmare.
"I keep seeing it, doc..... I just-- I don't know." I say as I bury my face in my hands.
"What is it that you keep on seeing?"
"Them. I keep on seeing Rob, with her....with Chelsea." I say stuttering, just saying it terrifies me. "And it straight away brings me to a dream where I kill myself, in various ways." I pause as I try to breathe in and out, trying to calm myself and hold my tears in. "And what sucks is that; I was the one who caused all this. I was the one who drove off the cliff. There's no one I can blame for and beat the shit out of for causing all this. No one to blame, but myself."
"Does it matter? Does it matter who caused all of this?"
"Yes. Because if it does all I'd do is get angry and infuriated at it. But now, all I feel is sadness and despair, heartbroken and pain. I swore to myself to never bring myself here again, but I did."
My psychiatrist pauses for a second as she takes the time to write it down on ehr notes. "You said 'again'. Do you mind telling me what happened the last time?" I didn't say or do anything in response, not wanting to answer, not wanting to bring back past horrible memories. "Does it have to do with that?" She points out the cuts on my left wrist, seeing as that I started carassing it after she registers me saying 'again'.
I sit there, face burried in my hands, tears slowly streaming. Silent and still. "Lachlan, I'd like to help. But I can't unless you tell me everything."
"B-but...I'm not ready"
"And that's okay. It's okay if you're not ready, I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable by forcing it out of you." She says comforting me. "Just come to me when you are. The faster it is, the better. So that I can help you with it. Alright?"
I nod my head, to which she stands up and says I can go back to my room. She pushes the wheelchair I am on to my room and helped me with getting me on my bed.
[Jerome's POV]
"How is he, doc?" I immediately ask as soon as she exits Lachlan's room.
"Not doing so good. But I told him to get some rest." She pauses for a brief second as she seems to be pondering on something. She opens her mouth, and hesitatingly tries to say something. "Do you....by any chance....know...what happened to Lachlan last time?"
"Uhh, not really doc. I only knew him for a short period before this. And by that time he was already a dick. So, no, not really."
"Huh. So it's before that. Alright, thanks." She says leaving me there, leaving me confused as well.
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"Heey, Mrs. Power. Thanks for taking the time to see me." I say as we enter her house, heading to the living room for some chit chat.
"No problem, Jerome. What seems to be the problem here?" She says pouring a cup of tea for me. How posh. I keep forgetting that Lachlan is a rich trash. "It's about Lachlan, I'm assuming. I haven't visited him yet today. How is he?"
"Not so good. And that's why I'm here, I need your help." She nods her head in response. "Lachlan mentioned something about what happened to him in the past. Do you have any infos you can tell me about that?"
"Unfortunately, no. He was never the type to share it to his family. He was always a loner." Well, that's that. I don't know how else to find out about this. "Although, he was very close to his olderst sister when he was young. More closer than he is to the rest of us. Her name is Jackie, maybe you can try her?"
"Gosh, wow. Thanks, Mrs. Power. Is she home? Can I see her?"
"See, that's the problem. She's not here. She's back home in Australia." Australia????? That's like across the world???
"Well, darn. Is there any way I can contact her?" she grabs a paper nearby and a pencil to write with. She jots down her name, number, skype name, basically every type of contact, even her address. "Thanks, Mrs. Power." I say as she passes me the paper.
A/N: Guys, I hate to say this, but I'm planning on ending this soon. Not in the next chapter of course, but soon. Should I end it though? What do you guys think? I feel like there's no reason for me to drag this for too long. But I can if you guys want too. It's all up to you guys. What do you think I should do? Let me know. I already have an ending for this. Justt,,,, I don't know whether I should end it. This fanfic is my fav omg.
Also, sorry if this chapter seems short and content-lacking for you guys. I have more to write, but I don't want to spend it all on here. Just tune in to the next chapter. ;)
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