I stared at him. He was beautiful. Everything else was blurred out. I was only focused on him.
"Ali." Brandon yelled at me, snapping me out of my concentration.
"What?" I snapped.
"Oh my god. Sorry." He apologized.
"No, no. Its my fault. Im sorry." I grabbed his hand and held it.
"What were you looking at?" He asked, confused.
"Nothing." I shook my head.
I wanted a drink so badly right now, I didn't care if I got caught. I walked over to the bar with Brandon and took multiple shots of Hennessy. A few minutes later I felt it start to kick in and took a few more shots.
"Ali, stop!" Brandon yelled at me.
"Just leave my the fuck alone Brandon, I don't give a shit about you. The only person I want is Cameron." I yelled back.
He stared at me. I saw tears coming to his eyes and he put his head down.
I ran outside and starting crying. 'What did I just do.' I thought to myself. 'I just left the best thing thats ever happened to me. I broke his heart.' I continued thinking. I put my hands on my head and pulled aggressively on my hair.
Next thing I knew I felt someone sit down next to me. I didn't look over until he say something to me.
"Are you okay?" He asked, and I looked over.
"Oh-oh my god." I stuttered. My thoughts left me.
"Sorry." He laughed, "I probably should've introduced myself. Im camer-"
"Yeah, yeah. I know who you are." I said, not realizing how stupid I sounded saying that.
"You do?" He looked at me.
"Mhm." I hummed.
"Wow, okay." He laughed again.
I kept looking at him, then looked back down in my lap and started talking, "If this sounds really weird, I'm so sorry. But, I'm just really upset because I was kind of talking to Brandon. You know him?"
"Yeah yeah." He replied.
"Yeah well," I stopped, "I never wanted to be anything serious with him, because I wanted to be with you, and I didn't want to be with him and not give him my all."
Cameron looked over at my confused, "but how, do you even know me?" he stuttered.
"C'mon. You are all over the internet." I glanced at him.
"Yeah, but im not that big. Only a few thousand followers."
"And I'm one of them." I picked my head up, looking into his eyes.
He looked back into my eyes and smiled at me, "You're really pretty by the way."
"T-Thanks." I laughed a little.
He nodded. And as he nodded I thought about my diary. 'Should I tell him about it?' 'Show him all my letters written to him?' I was interrupted by my thoughts when I saw Brandon coming outside.
"I'll leave you two alone." Cameron said and stood up, straightening his pants out.
I looked back down at the ground as Brandon replaced Cameron.
BRANDON'S POV
I looked at Ali as she looked down at the concrete with her hands on her head.
"I love you Al, and I know you don't feel the same. But I've always wanted to tell you that, since the second I met you. I just felt we had a strong connection. But, I guess not." I said.
She kept looking down and shook her head, and I watched a tear fall to the floor. I scooted closer to her and wrapped my arms around her and laid my head on her shoulder. She let us stay like that for a while.
"I think, I think I love you too." She muttered.
I let loose on her and looked at her.
"You just told me you didn't give a fuck about me?" I questioned.
"Yeah, but, when reality hits me. Its not even reality." She shook her head, looking up at me, "Cause I bet I could have Cameron if I wanted to. But you've been there for me, and I think I'm just scared of admitting that to anyone, even myself. Like I just sat here and told Cameron I wanted him and not you. But like, does that boy even know me? We could get to know each other, but I already know you and I know us and I love us." She pushed out, barely making sense.
I bit back a smile, looking at her and pushed some of her hair behind her ear, then lightly pressed my lips against hers. I felt her kiss back and smile against my lips.
"I love you so much Ali. I'm just jealous of him, and i'm scared he's gonna take you away from me and i'm not playing that shit. What's mine is all mine. No sharing."
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Word Count: 798
Sorry for being so inactive on all my stories, i know i keep saying this but imma try and update more often since i really have nothing else to do this summer lmao
-julia
