Chapter 8: This is what heartache feels like
I wake up and check the time it's about 7:30pm. Wow, I slept for about six hours. Dang. I won't be able to fall asleep tonight. I open my door and slowly walk down the stairs. My mom is in the kitchen making dinner. I say that I am not that hungry and she has a worried look on her face as she feels my forehead. She tells me that my forehead feels warm. I think to myself that maybe it is because I have been bundled up under the sheets as I cried myself to sleep. She tells me she wants me to stay home tomorrow and that she will call in sick for me. She gives me a motherly hug and gives me some orange juice and sends me back up to my room to go rest.
I check my phone and to my disappointment, there are no messages from Jake. No where were you today, nothing. I sit down at my desk and grab my notebook. You probably know that I love to sing and I love writing song lyrics in this notebook. It expresses my true emotions. I think of a song that I can relate to and start writing it in my notebook.
Last summer we met, we started as friends
I can't tell you how it all happened.
Then autumn it came, we were never the same
Those nights everything felt like magic.
And I wonder if you miss me too
If you don't here's the one thing that I wish you knew.
I think about you, every morning when I open my eyes.
I think about you every evening when I turn out the lights.
I think about you every moment every day of my life.
You're on my mind all the time it's true
I think about you.
I finish writing the lyrics then close the book. I haven't really realized until now how much I like Jake as more than a friend. Maybe that is the reason I am hurting so much. I have had feelings for my best friend all along. Now it is too late. Why didn't I realize this earlier? If I would have told him sooner none of this would happen. I need to talk to my mom about what to do, she is one of the only people that will give me the best advice and make me feel better about myself no matter what.
I decide to talk to my mom in the morning. I hope it goes well. I check my phone one last time before drifting into sleep for real this time.
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Nicole finally admitted her feelings to herself about Jake. Do you think she will tell Jake? How will he react to this?
Also, I do not own any lyrics from above. The song is, I Think About You from Austin and Ally.
