life of me

but why though

so appearently I thought I liked this girl and i thought she liked me back you know? well apparently she has a boyfriend, but she wasn't flirting but was friendly but being an idiot you know? before that to ( and before anyone says crap like " he's just a desperate guy going girl to girl" no I'm not like that. it's just if they don't like me back I'm not one to stay there begging unless I really love them. yes I used the word love get over it) I happened to like another girl. well she just got out of a relationship so I just backed away cuz she was going through stuff. It's I guess my fault? I happen to pick the right girls at the wrong time or the wrong girls and the worst time. the feeling of me being alone is just bad. it's like there is something missing, maybe it's cause i just don't like focusing on myself.