so let me say first off I'm sorry I haven't written in awhile but this is here to explain why I've been gone. so I'll start off with where I left off on brielle, I called it off cuz she was awkward about the whole idea and just didn't seem to be into it. that's pretty much it. ok so next on the line is why I've been gone is I've been working. I dont have a job but I've been focusing more on what I want to do in life and school work. that's that, and then there's my fucked up things. I may have depression. I'm not really happy much anymore and to my friends I am but that's just me seeming I'm happy. I think the last time I was really happy was when I was with hope. if you have read previous stories you know about her but if not let me explain. she was the best girlfriend I've ever had and though people say she was a bitch and i didnt deserve her, I feel like she was perfect and i just fucked it up somehow. she dumped me shortly after a year of us dating and then imeaditly within that weak starting dating this guy, which run or has she was cheating on me with, and i was devastated. I cut myself for awhile over that, shut up before you judge me on that btw ok? I loved her hell I still do, but ya know what? you kinda just realize that after awhile, maybe you should just be alone. that's my stage in life right now. but you people don't need to go through this. it hurts and you should talk to close people. I may not know you but I have a kik , dragonsfury00. if you don't know what that is well then it's a texting app you can use and add me. I'll be there for ya. even if we don't know eachother I'll try and help because I have had people just message me and I didn't know them. so we talked and hey ya know what? I helped th em out. but maybe I'm just not gonna help every one but atleast I can say I'm trying. "In a world without gold, we may have been heroes!" ~ Edward thatch, A.K.A Blackbeard. now some people will take that to literal meaning as money, I take it as we can do anything if nothing is in our paths. but there are, and that's the shit reality. but if we together face those obstacles, than we can be those heroes. what caused me to write again tonight was just I'm feeling like shit. and... maybe we can be heroes, not tonight, but maybe soon. just take my hand and let's go. let's be friends, hell lets be more, family. because blood shows we are related, bonds show brotherhood and sisterhood. remember my kik. and even though I say goodnight, you can still text me. snapchat is dragonmaster171, goodnight.
