Crystals P.O.V
My anxiety. My fear. My paranoia. Held me back from saving him. From saving the only thing that made me happy. I ran away from it like I didn't see anything. He was staring at me the whole time, he thought I was going to help. But I didn't. Why would someone love me. I run from fear.. Im not brave, I can't fight the dragons away. I let them defeat me, I let them live through me. He let alone probably wouldn't ever talk to me again. I ruined everything. My life without him.. Would he nothing. If I loved him like my heart says I did I would save him, no hesitation. But I didn't.. I let the jocks jab him and bruise him.
The day went by pretty fast, I didn't see him all day. I stood outside and looked for him honey brown hair until I found it. I ran throwds him. He stared at me. He just stared, not saying anything. If looks could killed, I'd be dead. His look gave my shivers. He walked away not saying anything, but his eyes talked for him. I didn't know what I excepted but surely not this. I thought I would have to get on my knees and beg. Why do I ruin everything..
When I got home, I ran right upstairs to my room. My room is my safe place. It keeps me away from my superficial family and friends. I grabbed my phone and started texting him. I wrote and re-wrote every sentence. Until I settled on something. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I have a fear. I'm not brave. I don't know how to help.. Please just forgive me." I counted to the three and sent it. I worried each second, and each minute he didn't reply. Till I was on the floor having an anxiety attack.I heard a bing from my phone and my heart stopped for a second. My palms started sweating. I knew it was him no one texts me but him.
