There I see it. My crappy shed...oh wait. That's my house. I know my moms drunken on the couch sleeping. Dads at work. I creep up to the door and quietly creep in. I know if I wake mom up all hell will break loose. I slowly tip toe into my room. Ok I'm safe until 5:30. I look in the mirror. Uggg I'm disgusting. Far and ugly. I remember the incident that occurred at school. My eyes,so puffy and red. I take out my blade. 1...2...3. That's enough. I dab my towel on my open wounds. I look at the clock. OH SHIT! It's 4:30. Only 30 more minutes until I have to go into my deep deep trance to block out the pain. Maybe he'll forget this time. Yeah right. I deserve it. At least,that's what he says. I believe him. I take out my homework. Holding back tears. I remember I need to make a video to. Eh,homework can wait. I'll do an Q and A.
Rachellove asks "what's your favorite color?" Well Rachel, I like the color blue and orange. After I did 10 more I realized it was time. I ended my video. I heard the door open. Damn...
After all that...I'm still here. How? I'm not strong I'm weak. I'm not pretty I'm ugly. I have no one who cares. Maybe they do...it sure doesn't seem like it sometimes. I'm beaten. Bruised everywhere now. I have to cover it up. No one knows. I hear my phone ring.
"What do you want honey boo boo child" I say to the other person.
"You know I hate that! I was just wondering if you could hang out?"
" ya sure let me just umm....change first." I say
"Ok sounds good ill meet you outside your door."
"NO..I mean, no don't worry about it. I'll meet you at the park. See ya later Tristan." I say
"Ok...see ya.." He says. I hang up. I have to crawl out threw the window. Hopefully no one notices I'm gone...
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Love is fragile...
Fanfiction"Can we just forget for a moment...just forget that I exist. Why do I exist anymore anyways..." The only thing holding her back from cutting to deep was...Nothing.....I tried my best maybe it's time....
