Cold white brick walls
Tables
Chairs
Whiteboard
This classroom makes me feel like I'm back at the hospital
A small group of kids talking about health
I get so disturbed listening to the teacher in health class
I get so... Ruffled learning about health
Whenever we get to the emotion part of stuff
Throwing this thing to the other thing to this other thing and that causes a reaction
But that's far to simple
It's far to logical
Emotions are not supposed to be logical
I love science and how I don't have to think to much about stuff cause it's right there in front of me
Not leaving any room for doubts
I hate science and how it dictates things to such a logical and scientific level
It's not supposed to be that easy
Do not sit there and tell me how emotions supposedly work in the brain
You tell us how it shows a response and how it's throw around
You give us names to these little happy cells and these depressed cells
You tell us how medicine fakes happiness to make us not depressed
That hurts
I hate taking medicine
Telling me that it helps control my emotions or sickness doesn't help
Why should I take that medicine and have it fake something to trick me into having this emotion that I obviously don't have
I don't have that emotion
Your medicine is like constantly repeating into my brain that everything's okay
It's obviously not though so why are you lying to me
Stop lying to me
I don't want your medicine why can't I do it on my own
Why do I have to fake it to make it?
Why do I have to lie to get closer to telling the truth?
The happiness is not worth it if you have to make it happen
It's not real happiness
To think about it
These tiny pills in this small bottle
Control my mind to make it something it is not
These tiny things know how to control me more than I do
That's not something I wanna accept
That's not something I need to accept
I would tell you anything
To keep you from giving me these things
Fake help in the form of real help
Fake happiness in the form of real happiness
You wonder why I have trust issues
