I can say it but you won't believe me
It feels like the heart of athletes
I shiver at your touch
Yet your eyes are somewhere else
It's hard to know that you're not here
Although you're staring at the water rushing swiftly cross, while we're sitting at the pier
I found my dead heart next to rocks on the ground
I left my hearing at the door
Where you used to slam it, all before
I left my sight at your house
Where you closed the window, too cold
I once knew
You say you're still here
I don't believe you
But I can still contact your eyes
Like the rain hitting your stomach as we laid on the soil
We got drunk one night
Nothing but darkness not a single speck of light
You held my hair back and I poured my stomach out
Nothing but the warmth of your hand
I still cannot comprehend
Why you looked stone cold sober, when I cried my eyes out
I tried turning around but all I saw were the colours of the rubix cube
Back in college we would say
We would fix ours one day
