5SOS Text Messages

Let Go

*Warning: this one is very sad and it might be triggering so read at your own discretion*

Ashton: It has been three weeks and two days since you've been gone and all I can think about is about you. You flood my every waking thought and you are all I see in my dreams.

2 Weeks Later

Ashton: I think about you all the time, how you would react if you saw me like this. I'm a mess. The boys are mad at me, I haven't eaten much in days. I'm angry all the time. Why did you have to leave me.

1 month later

Ashton: Y/N, it was your birthday today and all I could think about was the promise ring I had bought for you a few months ago. I wish I had given it to you sooner. Would that have made you stay?

3 months later

Ashton: Today I went there for the first time since that day. I finally had the balls to go to your grave. It was a beautiful headstone, with one of your favourite quotes on it.

Ashton: I also brought the ring there and I decided to bury it a few feet down next to your grave. I still wanted you to have it.

1 year later

Ashton: The anniversary of your death is coming up and I finally decided to do it. I decided to get help, to see someone about my depression. The boys are happy. They are hoping that one day, I'll play music again with them. I want to, so badly.

1 and a half years later

Ashton: I've been seeing someone for my depression and I think slowly I'm starting to feel happier again. I felt so low for awhile that I just thought about ending it all. That way, I would have gotten to be with you. I didn't though. I realized that my family needed me. The boys needed me. I met this girl the other day and she is amazing Y/N, I really think you would have liked her. We decided though, that until I get better, we will remain friends. This is the last time I will text this number. I did this to get my feelings out but now I think that I can talk to my close ones about them. Thank you Y/N, for teaching me it is okay to let my feelings out, for teaching me to not give up and for teaching me that love can be found even in dark times. I love you and will always love you but now I need to let you go, but I know I will always remember you.

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I realized most of my updates have been happy ones so I decided to change it up a bit.

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