so of course i didn't just think, "hey i wanna join this" without a reason.
so here's my reason
ok so 2013 and 2014 were the worst years of my life
i still lived w my grandma bc my mom still wasn't making enough money to support the both of us
so i lived at my grandma's house for the first 12 years of my life
and eventually, my grandma started going to her friend "Holly's" house
but she was actually out, cheating on my grandpa
she even took me to meet her boyfriend a few times.
i didnt even know it was her boyfriend so i was like hey ok
she told me they were just friends, but my great aunt told me everything that was going on
i was devastated bc my grandma was my everything (yes i was v lame)
she moved in with him for a year and i was so disgusted
and i hated her for that solid year.
and during that time, my friend and i were being bullied and called lesbians
ofc at the time, i didnt know i was bisexual so i was like "ewW i like boys obviously"
and it got to the point where i would get home from school and sit on my swingset and cry for hours
so those years were the worst years of my fucking life
but i am so glad i was finding good ways to express my anger and sadness
i remember sitting in my room writing lots of poetry and crying.
... and i also remember breaking a lot of stuff... i have a really short temper...
when i look back at it, it's so cringey but at least i was taking my feelings out
okay i hope you understand and are inspired or something idk
have a lovely day/night!
- carissa
