shameless | z.m

[2] earned it

The crowd immersed in applause as Abel received his award that was incredibly well deserved- he really did work his ass off this year. I am grabbed and shook in every direction especially by Yolanda, my mother and Gi. I clap, blowing him a sultry kiss as the live camera pans to our row as Gigi waves to it happily.

"You must be so proud of your man!" The rows in front shout to me. I smile and nod, but continue to clap.

..He deserves so much more than a publicized relationship. He really does believe in the love he has for me and it being reciprocated but I can't pretend to be somebody I'm not anymore.

Sure it has gotten me so many new gigs and gained me popularity as being his girlfriend as his songs hit #1 charts, the music video I starred in of his, and so on...Of course "The Weeknd's" girlfriend is going to turn heads you know?

I was interrupted in my thoughts by being pushed towards the stairs, almost tumbling on the material of my dress dragging on the floor.

"Speech! Speech! You go get your man!" Was heard across the rows as I was pushed down the stairs down to the stage. Shit; I didn't prepare anything. My mind literally went blank and before I knew it all I saw was thousands of people in front of me and Abel's eyes full of joy in front of me. I could hear my family cheer me on as I cleared my throat and approached the mic.

"Um..hi, I'm Bella Hadid...and this is Abel as you all probably know." My throat croaked as a few chuckles were heard in the audience.
I looked down and interlocked my fingers, as I took a deep breath.

"I'm so proud of Abel. He has worked so hard and he truly deserves this. I'm happy for you as a friend.."

The room went silent and I could see Abel's eyes darken and somewhat frown.

"And as a lover."

The room erupted in applause as he pulled me by the waist, embracing my cheek.
"I love you, baby." He whispered as I tugged away and skipped off the stage.

Sighing, my eyes began to burn but I couldn't release my true feelings in front of all these people who are clearly rooting for us.
Not to mention Evan would kill me if I made a scene. And nobody in my family is supposed to know about this anyways; it is better kept secret in the end.

The plan is to publicly break up tonight, at the after party. I made it clear to Evan I wanted it to be this way and after a few strings pulled, eventually he agreed.

I regain my composure on my seat, congratulated by those I passed by, forcing smiles.

"Are you okay?" My little brother, Anwar asks me, and is probably the only one to do so for a while now. He's always been understanding and mature for a 16 year old.

I sigh deeply before answering.

"Soon I will be."

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a/n: once again thanks for the reads!! regular updates and the story is getting there slowly but surely (zayns gonna make his zaddy appearance soon so keep urself updated)
xo fam