shameless | z.m

[5] acquainted

zayns pov

This girl whom I'd just pretty much met had already been giving me a shit ton of inspiration for the album that's going to be released soon. Like, a lot more than I'd expected her to give me..after giving her a hit from the beauty I'd rolled this morning, she immediately got into a laughing fit, causing me to laugh aswell but it didn't feel awkward..or uncomfortable..or anything.

We had entered some kind of trance that I only got in by myself and it was unusual, but the most fun I'd had in a while.
Plus, she had got into this dancing fit a few minutes ago when I started playing some of my favorite R&B classics. Something about her kind of caught me off guard; there was something about the way she was.
I basically knew her life story under an hour we spent together, the whole Abel shit...man it seemed tough; I kind of felt bad because I would've never resigned to that kind of shit.

She was clearly enjoying herself...I tried to distract myself from the fact that Gi hasn't called me since yesterday night..I knew she was pissed but I'll sort it later. For now I have to deal with distracting myself from Bel's skirt hinging up her thigh as she twirled and jumped around the room to my music. Fuck man...this was my girlfriend's sister. The more I thought of it this way, the more appealing it seemed. I'm so fucked up. I chuckled to myself, pulling her hands in to sit.

"You need to chill." I amusingly claimed as she pouted.

"You're faded." She said, pinching my nose playfully.

"You're cute." Did I just really? Whatever, she probably didn't hear me. Although a light tint of pink was seen in her cheeks right after I said that.

She shifted uncomfortably from next to me to the opposite side of the studio, crossing her arms over her chest, fixing her skirt.
"Has Gigi called yet?"

I shook my head. "You?"
"Yeah, earlier when I was getting Cheetos from the kitchen. I told her where I was and stuff..she kinda hung up after." She said with a straight face, but let out an, I'm guessing unintentional chuckle after. Which turned into a laughing fit.

She did this thing where her eyes crinkle at the sides, almost closing, and her eyes get all watery and bright and the sides of her mouth crease into laughing lines, and she also bends over a lot, to hold her sides.
It was so adorable. Gigi does the same thing but it was different..it was the kind of laugh you write about in songs. I felt a pang of guilt in my stomach.
"Hey, this is a secret okay."
She leaned forward, partially exposing the lace material wrapped against her cleavage under her silk tee, the slightest bit of glisten within her pale aqua eyes; my eyes started burning even more..not from the weed. Her outer appearance demonstrates such a sense of innocence that pains me to describe because of what she's been through..but when I look at her through the perspective of "she's my girlfriend's sister" it makes me eager..like a sense of hunger because of the unattainability..like frustration?

The worst part is I knew a lot more about her life than most of her family and friends..it intrigued me what made her think I was worthy of her trust.

"Zayn? Tell me.." She said, puckering her bottom lip as she titled her head.

"Listen."  I softly whispered, placing her on my lap.
In this moment, I was so damn high I don't give a fuck what this could mean.

Pressing on the volume button, the deep bass filled the room, booming through my mind, entering a state of pure bliss.
I assumed it was happening to Bel too as she gently placed her neck back onto my shoulder, closing her eyes as she relaxed to..my first work of art, in other words an unreleased single to my new album.

"can your heart be mine in search?
cause' i have no time to help you find
all the words, melodies and memories
stories that sound absurd
i will tell no lies..

as long as you look me in the eyes
i'll go wherever you are, i'll follow behind

heard about the all the things you've done
and all the wars you've been in
heard about the love you lost
it was over before it began
heard about all the miles you've gone
just to start again
heard about all that you've been through
and it sounds like you need a friend, a friend

please don't wait, i'm not coming home tonight
i want to love you, but i.. can't"

Once the song came to an end, I had to pull Bel's hand's off her face.
"Was it that shit?" I asked, laughing, wiping my thumb across her face, clearing the liquid glistening against her cheekbones.

"No, no it's so amazing."
She said, as she shifted her body.
"Am I the first person you show it to?"
I nod.

Her porcelain skin dimmed after she heard this, so she paused after replying.
She had barely any flaws. I mean she did, but they made her so individual and unique. Something about that.

"Listen, Gi will be mad if I don't go home and explain why I didn't go home last night. You should too. But it was fun, all this. Thank you for listening to me and- yeah you passed the cringy sister test or whatever."
She stuck her tongue out playfully, grabbing her things, flicking her hair into a ponytail, quickly checking herself into the reflection of my studio's mirror and stumbles on the step.

An awkward silence fills the room before I interrupt.
"Uh. Do you wanna stay until your high fades over? I mean I know you're a lightweight so-"

"No. No." She frowns, collecting herself as she's about to head through the door up the stairs.
"By the way, what's the song called?"

I smile. "Rear View." The fact she enjoyed the song made me enter this sort of euphoria trance. Like, the pure fact that two individuals could enjoy the same things and each other's presence in such a short amount of time..Fuck, I shouldn't have smoked this much.
It's the high, I convinced myself.

"Okay." Waving, she's off, out the door in a matter of seconds.

Suddenly, I feel my trance coming to an end. Maybe the euphoria I was experiencing wasn't the drugs, but a specific person's company.

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a/n

yO sorry for how long it took for this update but i really appreciate all da reads n such and another update is coming and idk about you but i feel the tension sparking up sooooO
yes i am so excited ZADDY