DAN CONFESSES HIS LOVE
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you have what? did you hear that correctly? no, it couldn't be. not happening. not possible. what in the world could have given you– oh. the bomb.
you stare straight in shock as Dan comes a bit closer to you.
"was it the fumes? was it toxic waves? what was it?"
"I don't know. scientists are going pretty deep to find out what's wrong with you."
he talked about you as if you were his long-term friend.
"but, I– it's just that... I need some... you're..."
"I know, it's a lot to take in."
"why do you care about me so much?" you ask, a little sharper than you meant. "I mean, you could've gone back to London by now. you could be in your flat, making more videos, eating, binge watching anime. why are you still here?"
he softens.
"when someone finds out they have cancer, a part of them sort of just... dies. they don't care to live anymore. I've seen it happen to people. as enthusiastic as you guys are, I love my fans. I love my tumblr fandom. my Instagram fandom. my Twitter fandom. my YouTube fandom. all of them. I love them so much. you're included in those fandoms."
he took a deep breath.
"I know, it seems kind of stalker-ish. and it is. but I don't want you to live your life depressed, wondering when you'll die, wondering what will happen when you do. wondering where you'll go, all of that. I basically don't want you to end up like me, right?" he says with a hint of a sad smile.
"so, after I first found out you had cancer, I realized you were content with what you had then. then, your mum died. now, your dad wants to die so he can be with her wherever she is. I just don't want you to die because of something caused by me.
"as I realized how strong you were emotionally, over the past three weeks, I sort of admired you for that. at first I thought it was foolish of you to be so naïve, then I thought over it for a bit. it started slowly, but my admiration for your strength when it came to death sort of turned into a sort of reverence and respect."
you just sat in awe as you realized your mouth was hanging open. you quickly shut it and blinked a few times for good measure.
"I know it's a lot to take in for one day, but just try to fall asleep. you'll need it." he smiles awkwardly and turns around and leaves the room.
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Immersed in Time (closed)
Fanfictionif there were an option to go back to your normal life, you wouldn't take it. if there were an option to pretend all the sickness, surgery, and therapy didn't happen, you wouldn't take it. if there were an option to have the bomb not explode so clos...
