Think Outside The Box

An open letter to you my love

Dearest Ryota,

We fought like wild animals.
Hurt each other with words like we don't give a damn.

And yet at the end of the day we will find each other drawn by one another. It's like a magnet is connecting us to become whatever we are.

We may not be in an ideal relationship. Most likely you would make sure that everyone knows that we are not together.

Constantly flirting with other girls in front of me. Holding their hands, putting your arm on their shoulder, laughing on whatever the bimbo told you.

Or just by simply making me feel I don't exist in your life as if not just some hours ago we were busy with each other.

And most of the time you would tease me as your friend girlfriend. Axel to be exact.

I do admit that I did thought about making him as my rebound however as time goes by I realized he is more damaged than me and there is no way in hell that I could fix him.

And whenever we are together I can't help but compare him with you. I remember how you laugh.

On what you would do if you were in that situation. How we will look at each other and understand each other.

Ryota what we had was fun. I do miss you like a friend and as a lover but I will never forget on how much of an asshole you are.

Of how much you have used me like a ragdoll. Of how much you have hurt me with the actions that you do on purpose to make sure I know where I stand.

And how much I hated you for reminding me again and again how much I truly liked you.

Of your constant nagging on what kind of things you have done to deserve this kind of attention from me.

You don't have to ask me honestly cause I don't know myself.

But regardless of how happy I am when we are together.

I must moved on. I must proceed with the next step on my long journey towards happiness.

I am happy tho that you have once drop by.

And taught me a hard lesson in this so called life

Sincerely,
Mary