Think Outside The Box

The things that's considered normal in my life

Usually the things that are normal in my life.

Is fighting for my mom's attention from her asshole of a boyfriend

Having to pretend that you are nice to get yourself out of trouble

Smile like you are not really in pain

Acting like you actually don't give a damn even if your world is slowly disintegrating right before your very eyes

Checking your phone 24/7 with the hope someone might remember you without you reminding them of your existence

Giving a thumbs up to someone cause you know they need it

But at the back of your mind you are aware they will not do the same for you

Looking at the same corner for the hundred times like it is only the first time

Hoping that by some miracle he will just appear out of that corner

Looking at the same date of the month and wonder if they still remember

Feeling shitty of oneself and looking for an outlet to make oneself feel better

Hooking up with random strangers you met on the way or in the internet

Feeling pretty and sexy when in the reality you felt the opposite

Being a monster to that one person who shows you how nice the world is not because you just want to

But rather you don't remember how to be genuine appreciative of somebody else

Having to be in a group of people who don't give a damn about your well being

But making sure you always attend your so called friendship consisting of alcohol and smoke

Making your life a living hell just because you don't want to be part of the norms

Making rude comments at someone else back and gossiping it with someone you trust

Not knowing that the person you trust relay the message to the third person she also trust

Being batshit angry at someone and doing nothing cause killing might lead to jail time

Loving the stars cause it represent all the dreams you have

Holding your breath while looking at the sunset hoping for a miracle