Think Outside The Box

Pump in the air

Preparing for another party night

Keeping your make up and hair in check

Double checking if your bff will come

And getting revenge on someone who doesn't give a damn

Your planning on getting laid by some random stranger you can get in the club

As the music is on it's peak you found your target

Trying to make eye contact

Whispering to your friends you'll be right back

Dancing a little while holding your glass

Maneuvering professionally to his place

Dancing while your back is facing his table

Unlit cigarette on your left hand while you have your alcohol on your right

Finding the perfect spot to ditch your drink behind

And maybe borrow lighter on your target for the night.

He was dancing and you can feel him grind at your back

While you enjoy your drink and you lit up cigarette

Shouting at whatever the dj is saying

He put his hands on your waist and you cracked a little smile

Not making it obvious that it was what you wanted

That he is almost falling for your trap

As the fever is high and the lights leave you blind

You turned around and saw someone smirking at you

You saw his face and smell his breath

Look thoroughly and put your arms around his neck

Dance like there is no tomorrow

Letting the stranger shower you kisses on your exposed neck and collarbones

Letting your mind drift to that one time someone you really like getting on the same spot

Suppressed a moan for the onlookers

And he whispered at your ear

"Wanna go somewhere private babe?"

You were shocked not because he asked you out but because of the pet name he choose

Out of all the words he can pick out

He chosen that one word that can describe

The real reason why you are in that place

To forget that dreadful past from an asshole man

Who broke your heart

As everyone shouts and jump

You looked him in the eye and smiled

Kissed his lips goodbye and drifted off the shadows

Back to the safety of your friends table

Back to reality that no matter

How many guys you date

How many boys you have sex with

How many times you get hangover

You will still get the same empty feeling

Cause they are gone

For GOOD this time.

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It broke my heart while writing this I know many of us think that by being a bitch or an asshole is the easiest way out. But no! No one can really heal us.

Only time will tell and as long as we don't forgive ourselves.

We can never move on.