scars - a jay mcguiness fanfiction

Chapter 6

I carried on walking past the pile of shoes and got my head together before I walked into the living room. I didnt really know what to do because it wasnt my house and I havent lived in somewhere like this for years. I just didnt want to mess anything up, i didnt want to touch anything. I feel ike everything i touch and everyone i know ends up hating  me or breaking, im just a disappointment really.

I walked into the kitchen and opened up the fridge to see if there was any food i could get my hands on. nothing. apart from a loaf of bread, butter and some cheese. half the fridge was filled up with cans of beer. i rolled my eyes. i was hoping that jay wasnt too angry and aggresive when he gets drunk, however there is something about rough sex that turns me on. I decided to toast some bread and melt some cheese on the top and sit down on the sofa in the other room. i sat there and ate my lunch whilst watching the tv. I flicked over to the celebrity gossip channels and found one with jay on it. i thought it was a bit weird, but then i remembered the whole band thing. i carried on watching as the interviewer quistioned them to get some answers from them and any gossip they could get to tell the fans. 

I suddenly heard the interviewer ask jay a few questions. 

"so jay, is it true you're accompanied by a lady friend at the moment?" i could see a small smile grow on his face.

"it is true, but its early days" he replied as the crowd wooed at him. he turned red in the cheeks and i smiled and felt quite proud that he was already willing to talk to me in an interview. 

I had a constant smile on my face all lunchtime. i was buzzing. Jay mcguiness actually talked about me in an interview, im gonna be his girlfriend!! wait. i cant get ahead of myself, i just have to look cool. I took a deep breath and stood up as i was going upstairs. the smile grew across my face again as i walked into his room. I was going to get changed and go into town and do a bit of shopping. jay had left me some money for me to get some things to help me out whilst i was staying there. i got dressed into some of my spare leggings and threw on a loose jumper that just covered my bottom. i threw on a pair of boots, grabbed my bag and purse and walked out the door. i set off down the street, still thinking about the interview! I was so so happy it was unreal. the happiest ive been for ages.

I eventually got onto the high street, filled with all my favourite shops in which ive never been in and have only dreamt of going in them and buying things. first of all, i thought i better start off at victoria secrets. well, i need some underwear and i now need to impress jay dont i?! I bought a red lace thong with a white and blace lace bra to go with it. i think it looked quite good on me. it went well with my tanned skin. Next i went into a few more shops and brought enough clothes to last me long enough. 

I decided to get a coffee to take away from starbucks. id also always wanted to try one of these. all ive had of them is the remains from peoples iced lattes that they havent finished and have dumped on the floor. well i had to live off something. 

I walked out of starbucks with my latte and headed off down the street, passing alley ways as i go. I sort of missed that life, sitting and watching the world go by and sitting in the rain and listening to it hit the tops of cars. you may think that this life is terrible, but its something ive grown up with and something that i really do miss. its something i know well and i dont know any different. i love living with jay but i really wish i lived back on the streets, its where i feel comfortable. 

I found an alley way i had felt familiar with and sat down in the corner out the way of the street and drank my drink. It was nice to be back here, where i felt like i belonged. after an hour, the rain started to fall and i decided to go back to the house. I walked through the streets that i had once slept on and in the corner of the street, in a shop doorway i saw something which i couldnt really believe. i really didnt want it to be true. I closed my eyes and tried to make sure i wasnt dreaming. but i wasnt. i opened my eyes again and stared right at it. In front of me was jay. Jay Mcguiness snogging a girls face off. I could feel my heart shattering in two. I was right. He didnt care about me. he just used me for sex last night. I'm so fucking stupid! Tears of anger fell down my face. I froze. I couldnt believe it still. I dropped my coffee cup which hit the ground hard. Jay had stopped kissing her and looked my way.

Shit.

He'd seen me.

sorry its only a short chapter, ill update later tonight :) comment and vote thanks, vicky xxxx