scars - a jay mcguiness fanfiction

Chapter 5 - confusion

Jay's P.O.V

i woke up with what felt like a teddy bear on me. all i could hear is her gentle breathing patterns as she still lay there fast asleep, all warm and cozy. I dont know whether she'll be happy about what happened last night, something seemed to be on her mind and I dont know what it could be. yes she had something horrible done to her last night, but i believe that she forgot about that as soon as i took care of her body. Should I have slept with her? Was I being selfish? questions ran through my head but were shortly stopped as i felt sophie stir in her sleep. 

she moved her arm up in the air, held it there for a few seconds, relaxed and wacked me in the face. she obviously knew what she'd done because she smiled and a little giggle escaped her lips. I couldnt help but laugh a little too.

"sorry babe," she said as she smiled still with her eyes closed. 

I started playing with her blonde knotted hair. she was so cute and looked so innocent and peaceful when she lay there sleeping. I somehow had to tell her that I had to go into work today with the lads and work on the new album. 

i shuffled around a little, obviously disturbing her because a little moan escaped her lips just like the giggle had. 

"what are you doing?" she said, still with her eyes closed and holding a strong grip on my arm to stop me from standing up. 

"I have to go, love," i said trying to steal my arm away from her. 

"go where?"

she had obviously forgotten about the whole talk we had about the band last night.

"i have to record some new tunes for the album babe." i managed to escape her but her eyes opened as i was getting dressed.

"oh." she looked disappointed. she must have suddenly remembered. I can't help my job and this is normally the thing that makes my relationships go badly. also the fact that i have an obsession with avatar, skittles and lizards doesnt always help. But she has plenty of time to find that out yet...

"I know, but ill be back around 6 this evening and on my way home, i can get us a takeaway ok?"

she smiled again and nodded. i dont think she had much energy.

I finished getting ready and walked into my en suite bathroom and brushed my teeth. i dont usually make the effort to do this and i know you probably think thats disgusting but it sort of just slips my mind. but now i have to be presentable and smell good for sophie. I walked out of the bathroom and walked towards my bedroom door when i heard her again.

"uh uh, where do you think youre going mr? what about my kiss?!" she still couldnt be bothered to open her eyes, but her hand was in the air again, i tried to be careful not to be wacked again!! i think she was trying to feel where i was and when i was close to her. i walked over and she pulled me down to her and kissed me passionately on the lips. I really didnt expect this. I dont know whether she likes me or whether she just wanted to feel happy for one night. But whatever this thing that made my heart skip a beat every time i see her needs to be found out. I need to tell her how I feel but I'm not sure whether I can. I mean its only been one night, but I just felt a sudden connection between us both. 

I walked downstairs and grabbed an apple and a drink from the cupboard and shut the door as quietly as I could without her being woken up. Another day at the studio here i come.

Sophie's P.O.V

I hear the door quietly shut behind him as he set off for work. I crept out of bed and watched him drive off in his car as I wanted to make sure he had gone before I have a good old nosey around his house. I know I shouldn't do this, but I just cant help myself!!

I slipped on a spare dressing gown jay had hanging on the back of his door and i strolled down the stairs. I saw my broken stilletos on the floor which made the memories of last night come back to me. I dont think i should have slept with jay. what if he thinks im an easy girl and he can take advantage of me. I dont think hes that type of lad, but the fact that he hasnt had many girlfriends when hes so famous and as good looking as he is, theres something a bit strange about that. I dont get it. what if hes only using me to get sex? i dont know maybe im over thinking things but i really dont want him to get hurt, i really dont want him to fall for me because im not sure i love him yet and I probably wouldn't be the right girl for him especially with all my history and reoutation, it wouldnt really go down too well with the fans and i know its been only one night but normally i can tell what my feelings are and i actually have no feelings here.

im not in love with jay... im in love with tom. 

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