Poem book

5 W's

5 W's

Hi! Hello what's your name?

Gelled back black hair

Clean face

And a fashion sense of no other

Mystery boy

                                                           Who are you?

What's up with me?

I'm so loud and weird and open about myself

I've never been self concious of my eating

I would eat like a pig who has not seen the light

I would play sports like I was the only one in the world

Like winning never mattered

Points never existed

And boundaries were a thing of those who were afraid to go much farther

I would dress in the most mish mashed clothes and wacky hair do's

That they questioned my sanity, but with you...

Why do I do what I do?

Where do I begin?

I feel things I didn't when I was 13

When all that mattered was homework and friends

I feel uncertain and wary of myself

And at night when I'm sad, stressed about the world

Why do my thoughts go back to you?

I haven't heard your voice

I merely read your name

                                                 And yet I think of you?

And I know when my wish comes true

                                   I will regret it

Because of how I pictured you

Because of these standard I've hopelessly confined you in

And this pedestal I sat you in

And that frame I painted you in

Because that...

Is not you

The reality of you will never be you

And that's what gets me thinking

Maybe it's good that I never actually met you.

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