My "Perfect" life

Chapter 7

My heart had dropped , I could feel my face start to frown in anger .... It was Jordan!!!
I walked over to where he was and threw all of my drink in his face and said "FUCK YOU JORDAN"then stormed out the room!
Man I'm so fucking pissed I can't believe this mothafucka' how the hell he gone tell me not to come and his Rabbit looking ass was there with a whole notha' hoe ! oooowe I'm so heated right now! as I went into my Dorm I went to my room and slammed the door and I felt my eyes and nose start to burn from tears forming .

Next thing I know I was crying , crying hard. I was so fucking hurt and I was angry at myself for a minute for not clowning her ass, but then I realized she probably didn't know ... Jordan bet not says shit else to me.

5minutes later...
*knock knock* "This Dasha girl " come in I told her . as she opened the door and entered my room her mouth had drop I'm guessing from seeing me cry.
"Girl who the hell was that ?! " she asked. My Boyfri- , Ex Boyfriend.. "He had the biggest hoe on campus sitting in his lap and that's fucked up just calm down , you too pretty for all that crying-
a knock on the door interrupted Dasha and I conversation .. "It's Tee, Jordan outside looking for you." Ask him What the fuck he want! I said in anger with tears still streaming down my face ...

"He said he needs to talk" omg I said in my head. "Girl let his ass explain hisself , we'll give y'all some alone time" Okay fine ..
They leave and Jordan walks through my door , instead of him having a guilty look on his face he looked angry .. His Shirt was wet and one of his eyes were kind of red , I'm guessing from the alcohol and Sprite I threw at him .

He rushed over too me and roughly  grabbed me by the top of my dress."GIRL DON'T YOU EVER IN YO LIFE TRY TO EMBARRASS ME LIKE THAT AGAIN!" as he yelled in my face   Get yo hands off me jordan I said as I pushed him off me .
How the fuck you gone tell me not to go to that kickback and you there with some BITCH , why was y'all coming out the back anyways?! did you fuck her I yelled to him.
   All of a sudden I felt a sting across my cheek and before I knew it Jordan had slapped me..
     I held the left side of my face as I fell to the floor.
   "You really wanna know what happened back there?! huh ?! "
I didn't move or say anything I just laid on the floor scared to do anything.

I heard his belt unbuckle and his zipper slide down... "Sit up!" Jordan said Loudly , I sat up still holding my cheek my vision was blurry from all the crying I was doing. Jordan suddenly grabs my cheeks and squeezes them then he told me to "Open my damn mouth" I cried some more

NO JORDAN PLEASE .

I was begging him to stop, but it didn't work ....

He shoved his 9in man into my mouth and I tried bagging away put he just kept pushing my head.. "Maybe if you did this to me , I wouldn't have to get her to do it" he said .

I continued to gag as he kept trying to force his "Man" down my throat. " You bet not scrape Me Either!"

a couple of minutes later he pushed me back onto the floor and I heard him zip his zipper up then buckled his pants and left out without saying a word....

I couldn't believe what just happened , that wasn't Jordan that was a Monster who just came into my room . I cried so hard I couldn't cry anymore .. After 2 minutes I felt sick to my stomach and ran to the bathroom and Threw up in the toilet. I leaned back onto the tub then wiped my mouth with the back of my hand... "what the hell is going on , I have to be dreaming".

Kandy! Kandy! Dasha and Tee screamed.
Damn girl you okay?! Dasha had asked me.
I didn't even realize I had fell asleep on the bathroom floor.
"Yeah I'm straight that liquor got to me as I said lying through my teeth."

"Damn girl as Dasha chuckled , I'm about to run you some bath water get up and sit on the toilet as she said while flushing the toilet and closing the top."

As I sat in the bathtub I laid my head back and tried not to think about what happened I just couldn't it was stuck in my head.

after about 30 minutes I got out the tub and wrapped a towel around me and all I could do was stare at myself through the mirror.

"What does this mean? , it's my fault since he got caught?." There's no excuse of why he did that to me...
college is changing him and after Lastnight he changed my feelings.

I left the bathroom and walked to my room .. I put on some light blue track shorts with a black shirt and black ankle socks.
As I checked my phone I got a couple of surprising texts and calls from...

From Jordan. one of the messages read...

"I'm am so sorry Kandy !! Please let me talk to you , please baby I swear I'm sorry "
I had 18 missed calls and 9 Texts.
I didn't know what to do I was scared I didn't trust Jordan anymore, How could you do this to a girl who held you down since 8th grade ..

I didn't know if I should tell my girls because it's just somethings you keep to yourself ..
As I read the time on my phone it said "4:12am" .
I'll try to lay down and see where my mind was at.
I took 2 Benadryl and went on to sleep.

Should I give him a chance to explain and make everything right? Or should I kick his ass to the curb? This is my first everything though......