She Wants Me

Best Friend I Ever Had

I waited Til my mom arrive Back from The doctor to leave I Put Make Up on my Face so she wouldnt see what Prodigy had done

"mom ill be back okay"

"ok"

I ran down the street to rocs house and Banged on the door and his Mom Opened it

"YN girl what You doing Banging on my Door Like that"

"im so sorry Mrs.August I just really Need to talk to roc"

"he's Upstairs sleeping"

"Okay thanks"

I ran Past her to Rocs Room it was Noon and this nigga was sleeping

"Roccc" he didnt answer me "Roc" I jumped on him "Roc I know you hear me"

"What YN " he said in his sleepy Voice Lawd

"I Need to talk to You"

"lets talk later"

"later No I Need to talk now"

I got up and Pulled the cover off Him he hand on socks and boxers his abs were amazing Purberty Hit my best friend very well I stared for a while

"YN Give me Back my Cover"

"can We talk"

"can You talk and I listen"

"Yes"

"okay Give me the cover"

I gave it back in took off my shoes in Laaid Beside him Like old times then I began to talk

"Well Me and Prodigy Broke Up we had this huge fight about how I didnt want to have his kids"

"Thats all" Roc said with his eyes close

"no thats not all I just dont know how imma tell you this"

"tell me" He turned towards me

I Looked at the ceiling

"roc Immaa...."

"what"

"Imma Drug Dealer"

he laughed "YN why You lying to me"

"Im not I swear when I tell you Im goin to Prods house at Night I really go there to sale with prodigy"

"so he made you do it"

"No I wanted to after Devin died I needed to Make Things Happen on my own"

"why didnt you tell me YN I could have help you " he said kinda of angry

"Because You would be Mad Remember when we was in the 7th Grade we promise we would never ever be A Drug dealer hooker pimp drug addicted and stuff "

"yeah"

"You keep your promise and I didnt I didnt want you to be mad at Me"

"I could Have helped You YN And I cant do that If you dont tell me"

"I dont want help I wanna do things on my own"

"you can Do everything By yourself Let me help you"

"NO imma gonna get out anyway"

"good wait are you wearing Make Up"

"Yeah"

"You wanted to Look for me didnt you" He smirked

"Hell Nawl You aint nobody"

"mhmm But what else you need to talk about"

I got out of his Bed and start pacing Back and fourth

"Well I uhh I Kinda did some Bad really Bad well I feel Bad about it but I dont regret It"

"Yn Stop Stalling and Tell me"

"I Had sex With Ray"

"What"

"Yeah Ray From school I Know I was probably wrong but when Prodigy Hit me it made me feel Unloved and Unwanted and I turn to ray for comfort..and-"

Roc got out of Bed

"WHAT PRODIGY HIT YOU" he Yelled

"Shhh Keep your Voice Down and No" I played with my fingers

"Your Lying"

"No Im Not"

He went into the bathroom and I sat On his Bed I didnt really Mean for that to come Out Roc May not be A Drug Dealer or kNow much about The streets but he could fight When We were 14 we always Fought together he fought I fought I fought He fought Boys and all He would most deff Kick Prods ass Roc came back Out with a Towel

"what are you Doin"

"Come Here"

"No get away"

"YN Im not Playing with you"

"Roc stop"

He pinned Me down gettin on top of my I was Laid back On the bed and he held both of my hands with one of his And He put the towel On my Face and wiped the Make Up off

"Roc stop what are you doing Stop" I wiggled around

"YN" He said softly as he Let go of me "why didnt You tell me" he Yell

"Cause You would get Mad and Yell Like You are Now" Tears came down my face

"YN you cant Let him do You like that" His voice was shaky

"Roc Its Okay we are over Now DONE"

"I know YN But" He got On his Knees In front of me and Put both of his hands on my face then Looked into my eyes "But he cant Put his hands on you like that at all he shouldnt have" tears formed in his eyes

"He was Drunk Roc He said He was sorry Its okay its okay"

"Stop saying its okay when its not I dont give a dam...." He stopped and Left out the room and I Ran after Him

"Roc Where are You goin"

"dont worry About it" He grabbed His Keys

"Wait roc" I ran down the stairs

"Im going fah a drive dont follow me" He left

My Phone Rang

"Hello"

"YN YN"

"what"

"moms Coughing up Blood and Jordans crying"

"what why she coughing...Im on my way"

I ran Back down the street and bust threw the door

"MA where you at" I ran into the Bathroom and seen her bent over the toliet "whats wrong with you"

"YN Dont worry about me"

"how could you tell me to not worry when your coughing up blood"

"its okay I got Pills for it Its Okay thats what I went to the doctor for it"

"Jordan Baby stop crying" I picked Him Up "Its okay Grandma Fine Shes gonna be alright" He sniffed and wiped his tears